Only 6 more days!! I’m missing him so much over the last couple of days...more than normal. I think a lot of it has to do with excitement for our upcoming trip....but either way...I’m ready to have him back.
I was reading today and found a great website that you should check out... Domsubliving.com. There are a couple of articles that have really helped me change my train of thought...especially when I get sad. It really helps me get out of my head and focus on what I need to do in the relationship.
There is a great article about things to do when you have a long distant BDSM relationship. How do keep the kink while you are apart? Things like me keeping this blog so he can see my journal...having video calls...setting a schedule for video calls that have a theme or an activity to do together (dinner, watch a show, take an online BDSM class, etc)...still doing punishments and different ideas for punishments...gift ideas and sub maintenance ideas while apart. It also gives me lots of ideas on topics to discuss with my Master.
Sometimes I have so many questions that I feel like I might overwhelm him with my questions. Sometimes I feel like I shouldn’t ask or bring up topics to discuss since I’m the submissive....I mean is it my place to bring up these conversations? Would I be over stepping my bounds? Or do I just overthink all of this...and I should sit back and wait for his direction...and then at that point we can discuss if I have questions or concerns?
It’s hard when have just a little bit of time together. We try and pack in so much in the 10 days we do have together...and I also have to remember that these are his days off...so he does need to rest too. I will get to spend some more time with him on his next trip back to work as I will go to him over Christmas and New Years...so we won’t have such a huge gap of time apart!!
Maybe I’m just too eager to please...and just want to ensure he is pleased. It’s hard to know for sure when your apart....it’s so much easier when he is with me...I know when he is pleased...and I can also get into a mini routine of what to do...and he tells me.
Just 6 more days though....and maybe I can make use of some of my readings!!!
Until tomorrow...
