I need to learn to use my safe word.
This morning I was woken to sir pulling and tugging on my left nipple. He squeezed hard and tugged down. At first it was pleasant and I felt my pussy getting wet, but soon the pain was intensifying. I pushed his arm away but he came straight back, I fought with him, pushing him off, kicking him..He demanded I put my hand down away from where I was protecting my nipple from him.
I carried on trying to stop him but it was no use, I cried out and screamed as he pinned my wrists above my head and pulled on my nipple harder.
I know he wants to make me use my safe word now and he's not going to ease up until I do. I want him to stop but I'm stubborn and I can't bring myself to say my safe word.
I'm now crying and hyperventilating when finally he stops, I lay motionless trying to calm my breathing, to bring myself back. He falls asleep and I climb out of bed and go to the bathroom. I spend a few minutes crying, letting my frustration and upset out. I feel disappointed in myself and my inability still to take control and safe word out.