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It’s a long story but I’ll try and hit the main points. Girl meets boy, girl thinks boy is amazing, girl developed feelings for boy, girl freaked out and pushed boy away. Have you ever met someone and everything just felt natural. Conversation flows naturally and butterflies in your stomach. It feels as if their actually breathing life into you. They give you so much respect and kindness that you wonder how did you ever live without it before.

I like him more than I should. My issue is with myself. There are so many demons that I wasn’t ready to deal with. I always say I want open communication. But I ended shutting down and refused to talk about anything.

I’m not ready to confront and accept my situation. I don’t want to let him go but also don’t want to let him in. Worst part is now that I’ve seen how great it can be, I’m completely restless.

fml.

Satindragon - Sometimes it's really hard to let someone in. I have had to deal with more than my share of demons. The best part of finding Sir, is I no longer have to fight them alone. When we are together and I wake up crying or screaming he holds me and watches over me. When we are apart, he is only a phone call away. Sometimes facing those demons are better if you have someone willing to help you fight them. Yet the choice is yours.

5 years ago

Eyeswideopen(sub female){MYSELF} - It’s a hard balance... we’re to look at our submission as a gift. But you would never give a friend a gift that was knowingly broken....but damn if putting the pieces back together by yourself doesn’t suck dirty ass 🤦🏼‍♀️
I’m sorry to say I have no advice but you’re not alone feeling like this.

5 years ago

NoOneofConsequence(dom male){Taken} - Ayup. Been down that road (on both sides). On my face a couple of times.

Just be true to you and it'll work out as it's supposed to is all I've got from those many experiences.

5 years ago

Infinite Possibilies - Hi all. Thanks for reaching out. Good to hear that this too shall pass. As an update, I’m giving myself some space so I can get grounded. I plan on contacting him next week and see where things go. Life is short and I figured I owe it to myself to someone who I think I have a connection with.

I’ll keep you updated.

5 years ago

Infinite Possibilies - Owe it to myself to try with someone*

5 years ago

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Infinite Possibilies

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So I fucked up....