It’s crazy to me that in basically a week of being in the IRL world of this lifestyle how much my views on it had changed. When I first experimented with online Doms I thought that rules and tasks were designed merely to make me submit, to give them power, to please them. I mean, I didn’t mind it, but my bratty side always got the better of me and I would rebel. Especially because I frankly didn’t see a point to any of the rules.
Enter my Daddy. We started with just a few rules and at first, again, I was thinking he merely made me do them to make him feel better. I didn’t mind, and only rebelled a little. Recently several more rules were added and I just didn’t see the point. Why all these rules. What happened to the bliss of just a handful.
The inner brat came out and wanted to break them. Wanted to push Daddy’s buttons for attention. Then, the terrible event that happened this weekend to me happened and I began to see the purpose to Daddy’s rules. Ask before I go do any kind of adult activities, because sometimes….okay basically all the time….Daddy knows what is best for me and sees red flags I look right past. Another rule, don’t talk to other Doms/men without his permission. Again I was pissed about this because most of my friends are guys, but this weekends event happened because I did talk to an ex without Daddy’s permission and he hurt me, just like he has done every single time in the past.
But the true act of love, compassion, and care I saw from Daddy was when I told him, I never wanted to drink again because it always gets me into trouble. Literally I don’t think, at least not in recent years, that I have ever drank and there been a positive outcome. That’s when Daddy added a rule for me that I cannot drink. In that moment things clicked. Daddy didn’t add rules to control me. Or make them to feel more dominant. He made them and adds them to make me a better person.
Yes, sometimes I brat, but I always correct my behavior once Daddy steps in. And no, this realization won’t make me brat less, but let’s just say I am going to choose which rules to brat with. Every day I grow more and more drawn to my Daddy. Every day I realize how much he cares about me and desires to protect me. Every day I find myself wanting to get better and better for him. This lifestyle is so much more than I could ever dream possible and I can’t wait to discover myself more and more in it every day. I can’t wait to become the woman I have always believed I could be through Daddy’s help and guidance. I literally feel like the luckiest brat in the world and am so luck my Daddy calls me his.