Master and the Sub

Why I'm a master and not a dominant. I think of myself as a master, the word dominant screams someone who is arrogant and always has to be in control. If you look at history there have been plenty of masters or lords as they were referred to. A master had subs under his control, butler's, maids, cooks, gardeners as did lords. A master was a kind person who treated his staff or subordinates with care and compassion but if one crossed the line or was disobedient than a master would punish them. The word dominant strikes me as a person that craves control all of the time, they live to be respected. Respect and trust are earned not demand of, if anyone every says you will respect me please tell them to go fuck themselves. A master is kind, loving and caring for his subordinates because they are doing their jobs to please their master, which master is most grateful. Dominant to me means power and without a submissive you have no power, with a dominant they command respect and loyalty but why should you give them this power? Have they truly earned it? Of all my years of working jobs I have no respect for a boss or supervisor that commands me to respect them. A good leader earns the trust and respect of his fellow members not commands it. I will follow any man or woman that earns my trust and respect but I will cut you down if you command me to respect you. My sub doesn't cook, clean, wait on me hand and foot, she is my equal, all that said she knows her place in our relationship I have earned her respect and trust so she is willing to do as I ask of her not as I command her to. Love for another human is more powerful than any order given on a battle field this is why I am a Master not a dominant. 

It's been 5 days since we have been home in the same house together, today is Friday the 13th and I can't be happier or feel more lucky. While talking with my father he said to us that we found our soulmate and I couldn't agree more. After two failed marriages I never thought I would find someone who would ever love me for who I am. I know the hurt she has been through and I only want to make sure she never cries again unless it's tears of joy. As she sleeps I will stand as a mighty lion to protect her as we are together I will always be by her side to love, honor and cherish my beautiful lioness. She guards me with her very soul and I love her so much for this, I have never had this kind of love and it is beyond words. Never stop looking for the one who makes your soul smile. 

I left on my first flight Thursday at 3:45pm, I was a bit nervous and my anxiety was off the charts I hadn't been on a plane for 18 years. This flight was turbulent and that didn't help, i tried to sleep but that was never going to happen. I landed in Charlotte North Carolina had to rush to the other side of the airport to catch my next flight to Maryland. I got to talk to my beautiful lioness briefly before getting on the plane, this flight was filled with more turbulence than the first one and they never took off the seatbelt sign. All I kept thinking was was I going to die before I could see the most amazing person I've ever met. Flight landed at 10:15pm she was there like a beautiful angel we hugged for what seemed like forever. After getting something to eat we headed to the hotel, lets just say it wasn't a place to write home about. We had issues with the room and she had a conversation with the front desk, we got upgraded to a suite for the night needless to say we didn't sleep much. Friday morning we got up early and went to pick up the trailer to haul her stuff back,  I met her mother which I had spoken to on the phone she is as beautiful as her daughter. After loading her motorcycle and all of her possessions we had a nice lunch with her mother before setting out for a 5 state drive. My lioness at the wheel we were starting our lives together, we stopped short of west Virginia because exhaustion was setting in. Next day after breakfast we hit the road again her at the wheel me enjoying the sites, she navigated through west Virginia and most of Kentucky before I took over, we made it to Indiana before calling it quits. Sunday morning we got a good start and enjoyed a nice scenic trip all the way to Missouri, we got home about 6:00pm. Both of us exhausted we crashed. Monday we unloaded the trailer, returned it, found me a new helmet and after a wonderful dinner we had a long beautiful ride, my lioness on the back holding tightly as we enjoyed the ride. As I write this my beautiful lioness is sleeping like a baby this has been an emotional rollercoaster for her and me but we couldn't be more happier than we are now. As me I will love her, cherish her, and protect her forever as her master i will do the  same. Hard to believe that only 3 months ago we first met,  I nerver want to lose my beautiful lioness. Se agropo my beautiful lioness. 

 I have heard this all my life, Life is what you make of it. This is a lie, let me explain life is what we make of it with what we are given, work for, have access to, and accept in life. First what were given starts at birth, a good home where we are taken care of, loved, fed, clothed, educated. When we leave the safety of this place we now learn to work for what we want, home, food, car, material objects to make us feel happy. Now understand that where have access to and accept starts at birth, some did not have the loving home, lack of food or clothes a good education or access to a college education. or certain opportunities others may have had. Some come from homes of abuse, lack of love, food or clothes, bad or no education of how life or people truly act or treat others. Now comes accept, how much are you willing to accept? As both doms and subs what are you willing to accept for what you want? As both of us were going over our conversations from the begining of our relationship we asked a lot of questions, we compared likes and dislikes we discussed everything inside and outside of the bedroom, honest comunnication between the both of us. We actually saw when things changed into the love we have for each other, I can't imagine my life without her. So if you are looking for a dom or sub I will say this take your time to ask plenty of questions, make sure your wants are considered, make sure you don't just blindly accept something or someone who doesn't work as hard as you do for what you truly want. My 2 cent's worth for some of the things i have read. Best wishes for finding the one who makes you smile at the meer thought of them.

Since my lioness left at the end of July I have been missing a piece of me. I have been in a relationship before but she is such an amazing person, let me explain that in my past relationships they started good but I was always the one to find fault with. I actually thought it was me until the second one blamed me for things I couldn't control generally life itself was my fault. They both claimed to have loved me but when all was said and done I was just not good enough, not enough money, didn't submit to there way to control me. Sorry for them I am a leo and I'm not willing to give up my pride when I know I'm right. My lioness is strong like me, she fights for what she wants and she can admit when she is wrong, things i am proud of in myself. The distance between us has been hard, not having her to hold to let her know how much I love her and will protect her. Her life is filled with stress brought on by others who don't care about her, people that only care about themself, this makes me worry about her everyday we are apart. So for the good news we decided we will make this work, my truck went up for sale, we have some money saved to get her here pay her bills until she can find a job. My flight leaves on September 5th and we are packing a trailer for a sceanic drive from the east coast to the middle of the country. We will start a long beautiful life together with mind, heart, body and soul as one. My lioness by my side forever, Se Agapo my beautiful lioness. 

As I stand at the airport waiting for the plane to land carrying my beautiful lioness, I will admit I'm a bit nervous. I bought two roses and two carnations and the paper around the flowers is starting to get rather messed up from the grip I have on them. We have spent well over 300 hours on the phone by what the history of my phone says, talking about our lives, things we enjoy, what we are looking for in a person. But this is the first time we are going to meet face to face will she find me as attractive as my pictures, will she be disappointed  with me all things running through my head at the time, I'm sure she is sitting on the plane thinking the same thing I just don't know. We fell in love with our hearts and mind long ago but this is the part where body and soul come in to play, will it work the way I want it to in my mind? I'm an adult but feel like a teenager going on a first date and hoping she will be my girlfriend, I asked her last month to marry me, some would say this is stupid because I just got divorced in April from a woman who didn't care about me. So how could I possibly ask a stranger to spend the rest of her life with me site unseen, because from all the conversations we have had I knew she is so special, a loving ,caring, intelligent,beautiful soul who I never want to lose. Her plane lands and I wait by the gate, no site of her, text message saying she was getting her luggage. I wait, still no site of her, a new text asking where I am, I explain I'm by the gate she says she is further down the terminal I missed her coming off the plane. I head down to where she is, I spot her before she see's me, My heart beats faster she is beautiful as she turns around to face me we hug and I smell her essence I am so lucky.I hand her the flowers I can tell she is emotional as am I. I gather her luggage and we proceed to leave the airport, I load her bags in the trunk and open the door for my lioness I am so happy. The drive home is like we have know each other all our lives, it's not awkward just a little bit of what I would describe as hopeful in we both want it to work in all ways possible. We arrive to my home, I give her the grand tour of everything, introduce her to my spoiled dog who is my master, I fix dinner and we have a nice talk. She as to be at a process for a job in the morning so I get her settled because morning will come early. Friday morning we get to her appointment on time, after I drive her to the place she will be working. We spend the rest of the day with me showing her around the place I live, the evening is spent just having diner and watching a movie. Saturday comes and I have to go to my grand daughters 13th birthday party, my lioness is thrown into my family first hand, she is greeted with love from my oldest child and some of my first ex wife's family which they were very respectful but also curious which I took great joy in them not knowing about my beautiful lioness. After a stop to play pool we headed home, I fixed dinner and introduced my lioness to a evening of just doing nothing, no responsibilities just relaxing this is when we got to experience body and soul finally meeting and I want to say I never want to lose my angel, she makes me feel at time I don't deserve such a wonderful human being but I am so grateful that she chose me. Sunday was spent just doing nothing but enjoying each others company, Monday she had a flight out, as we got to the airport we found out her flight was cancelled, we were both so happy to have another day together. Tuesday morning I had to make the hardest trip to the airport I ever have made, I know she will be back but to watch her leave was painful. My house feels so empty without her, my pets even know something is wrong, I can't wait for the day my lioness is by my side forever I will never let her forget how much I love her. To my lioness I say Se Agapo.

I have walked through this life for over half a century, as a young cub I have been hurt both physically and mentally which has left emotional scars that seem to never heal. I created my demon during these times to protect me from the hurt and pain it came at a cost, keeping people at a distance so as they could not hurt me but also not knowing how kindness and love felt. I can love someone and always show how much by my words or actions, but I seemed to have lost the ability to feel it myself, I hear the words and feel nothing. It was many years later when I met my first lioness, my walls I built lowered but I never torn them down, my demon wouldn't let me. 22 years later my lioness used her claws to rip open my chest, leaving me wounded, hurt, betrayed. Soon after in a doctor induced drug coma I felt the bullet pass through my body leaving a path of destruction taking two organs and damaging more all done by my own hand. The bullet is still in my chest to remind me of my mistakes and those I trusted betrayed me. Years later I met my second lioness she was nothing like my first (so I thought) different markings different stature. She encouraged, enticed and brought out the master in me.I found a life I had always wanted, things went well until my path crossed with the first lioness in a battle for my home. The second lioness was filled with resentment she blamed me for the things others did, things I couldn't change in life, again I felt the claws cut deep leaving me wounded, hurt and angry, my demon built the walls and stood guard once again. I told myself I will probably spend my life alone, I have the physical scars, mental scars, emotional scars, no one will ever love a broken person like me. I join this site, not sure what to find, I meet some incredible people I like to call my friends. They are special and always give damn good advice when I get lost, I try to help them also to the best of the life I have lived. I had seen her profile and two thoughts went through my mind she is younger than me and I don't think I'm her type so I leave no message. I wrote a blog post and i get a message from her, I say thank you for the comment and hope the best for her in life. One message leads to another, a bond is formed, one day a phone call which lasted 14 hours. She heard all about my life, my past two lionesses everything and she was still on the phone. I didn't know what to think, I was confused, my lioness is a young, beautiful, intelligent, energetic, loving person. I am an aged lion for which life has left it's scars and my walls have a demon standing near. After more conversations my lioness has been hurt by life, has all of the same scars as me, we are two separate broken pieces that fit together perfectly. She started tearing down my walls, my demon backed away but when the walls started to crumble my feeling were exposed and this left me questioning her. I made her cry which was not my intention, I have a hard time fathoming anyone ever loving me, something instilled from my childhood and life. My lioness loves me more than I love myself at times but I love her more than life itself for that, i can't imagine my life or a day without her. Thanks two a genetic genes derived from two parents I have depression on occasion and my feeling and my demon don't help with it. She fights me when it happens and when I insist she could do better than me, she fights and tells me I am the one for her and she want's only me, I can't believe what a wonderful, beautiful, intelligent, caring, loving person she is. I do know that if for whatever reason she was no longer in my life, it would probably be my last wound  the one that would cut  my chest deep enough so I could just lay down close my eyes and hope I would be release from this life.

My lioness is driving me crazy both mentally and physically. we get lost in our conversations and the time seems to pass faster than life itself. I have never met anyone I had so much in common with, music, movies, life in itself. She is so perfect I truly don't ever want to do anything to disappoint her. I know she love me but my demon makes me think she is better than I'll ever be.I will say I have never felt good enough for someone because of the life I have had. My life full of doubts, no love for myself, mental and physical pain from abuse by people I trusted. I have seen the pain in her eyes and heard it in the words she has spoken. We have both been broken by life, the one's we trusted and loved, but we found a place in our lives that we both feel the same. I can;t imagine my life without her and she has said the same. I have learned in the small amount of time we have know each other that sometime two broke pieces make a beautiful whole. My lioness I confess here and know that I will stand tall and always protect you,care for you, love you, cherish you until the day I fight to live so you may never be alone again. My lioness I love you more than I will ever be able to express in my lifetime.

My lioness has beautifully disrupted my life like a semi truck, for the last month I have gotten nothing done. Just our conversations make me smile and felt what happiness is again. Her beautiful heart shows me I can love again, know what it's like to feel love. We both have the emotional and mental connection at this point but time and distance is making the physical bond wait. There are four levels of bonding with a person, mind heart, body and soul we have two of these and soon the third I will cherish the day we have the fourth. My lioness is all I have ever wanted, someone that loves me as much as I love her, cares for me not just use me, I honestly think at this point she loves me more. I will dedicate my time on this planet to show her everyday how much I love her and will protect her until my last breath, My lioness deserves nothing less for the pain I have seen in her eyes and her soul I will never let her go.

I have never had this many conversation with anyone one that I cared about before, the first was 14 hours and all after have been quite long. My lioness makes me happy, she see's into my soul no one has ever looked that deep into me to see what lies beneath. I have exposed my soul to her and she accepts all my faults and the goodness in my heart. I know her past and love her more for showing me her scars. With every passing day are souls get closer, she will be here soon and we want to feel the bond of mind body and soul making us one that nothing can break our bond. She is perfect in my mind and I sometimes wonder what does she she in me. As she says I see the person deep inside and he is special, I love her more for this.