Master and the Sub

Well next weekend will be 2 months my lioness has had a migraine. Over these last 8 weeks we have been in the emergency room 4 times, countless trips to the doctors office,  meds out the ass with only minimal relief. Worst part is dealing with the incompetence from the doctor's office. Primary doctor sent us to a neurologist but he won't be available until March so we got to see a nurse practitioner who prescribed a injectable but didn't pay attention to the fact my lioness is allergic to latex which if she would have used it would have been a trip in an ambulance. Called to get something different and for 2 weeks she was on vacation, so we asked for a referral to another neurologist still can't get them to send it. On top of it they just got the referral for the MRI which was supposed to be done 2 weeks ago.  All the while my beautiful lioness has missed work and if this shit keeps up she might lose her job. I have been chewing ass trying to get some answers will no results so I got her an appointment with a new doctor now we get to start at ground zero. My lioness feels like she's being a burden on me, but that couldn't be farther from the truth, I just want the happy beautiful lioness I met last June. I will admit this shit has caused me stress but it's not her fault it's dealing with people who just don't seem to care one way or another if she feels better. Starting February 3rd we have an MRi on the 4th we see a new doctor with hope that they can find out what's causing her migraines. If you want a true test of your love for someone and to see if your dynamics can stand strong be there for them at their worst so at their best it will seem effortless.  To all of our family here we wish you the best in all aspects of life, stay strong because life sometimes can make you feel weak. Big hug from Lion and Hazel eyes. 

Life is what you make of it, I've heard this along with many of you but this is all dependent on if you have the right tools life gives you.  For some people life gives them the tools, good health, good family, good education, the opportunities that come their way that help them proceed through life with what they need and want. For others life doesn't provide these things so what do you do, you make life with what you have, make the best out of a bad situation what I was told and still believe. As bad as life has been there's always a positive side for me, having a conversation with Hazel eyes I realize that if certain things would have been better for me I wouldn't ever been on this site and I wouldn't have met her. Sometimes bad things bring great things into life, a forest burned down by lightning is most beautiful after time passes. Love is unconditional, I have heard this and must say I don't believe this is the right statement love is different for everyone, someone's lack of affection as a child then getting it by someone could constitute love for them. Being shown caring and compassion when you never had it could be someone's thought of love, so what is love? My belief is it's many different things to all of us, a feeling of something missing when the one you love is not near, a happy feeling knowing that you are cared for by someone other than yourself ( now realize I honestly think you must love yourself before others will because negativity atracts more negatively). We must find our own definition of what love is to us and find that person who fills our reason for love to give and receive. Control is power over someone or something that affects life, love and how we can make the best out of the life we are given. For most of us we believe we are in control of our own lives but when you look at the big picture we only have some control, jobs, family, relationships, health, many of karma's little bites in the ass have shown us who's in control at times. So what do we do? We take control of the things we can at the moment not worrying about what's going to happen down the road we will deal with that bridge when we get there. So here's the update on life, love, and control with these lions, 6 weeks now Hazel eyes has been sick, my youngest child has become transgender,  my parents are mad at us because we didn't tell them before they did, with Hazel not working money has gotten thin, I'm trying to sell my truck but all we get is ghosted by inconsiderate people wasting our time. The stress from all this is affecting both of us, she is ready to just give up on doctors because nobody seems to care another way others have control over your life. Now the things I have learned from my life, it will get better may take more time but someday soon. As I always told my children if you think you have it bad turn around someone behind you has it worse. I'm thankful for all we have, a loving home, food, love for each other.  Oh and a positive thing happened a roofing company stopped and wanted to inspect my roof, please understand I haven't had the money to get it done, never filed a claim ever with insurance after living here 27 years. Getting a new roof, work starts this morning all covered by insurance for storm damage I didn't know about. A positive to shine light on the negative things lately. My summary life, love, control how and who you give these to depends only on you, make sure what you give you can afford to lose without it costing you everything.  From the lions den we wish everyone the best our love to you all. Happy new year and may you make the best out of whatever comes along in life. Big hug to all. ?

Update, doctors appointment done, got an x ray done new meds that hopefully won't make her so tired. Will keep all informed when we find out something new. Big hug to all. 

Well it's been 4 weeks now and Hazel eyes is still suffering with her migraines. As I write this she is sleeping off her earlier dose of medication just to take more before her headache returns. Doctor's appointment tomorrow and I can only hope they can find a cure, watching someone you love suffer is hard when there's nothing you can do but give support. I feel utterly useless, and she's getting tired of being sedated just to get some temporary relief. I am not a master nor a dominant, just a husband concerned about my wife, if possible I would take every ache and pain just to have happiness fill her beautiful hazel eyes again. Will update if something new happens. Big hug to all our friends. 

Good evening to everyone, sorry I havent't wrote for awhile but life sometimes takes presidence over everthing else. It's been a pressing last 3 weeks, my beautiful lioness has had a migrain that just won't go away. I haven't seen this many drugs since high school and they don't seem to be doing any good, hopefully going to see a neurologist soon I just want my lioness back to feeling good again. Over the last few weeks I have got to see what others have done to her in the past and it made me reflect on how others in our life have an inpact sometime's small other times quite tramatic. You see I was always taught to treat people with the love and respect they deserve until such time they don't. I have done nothing special over the last few weeks except take care of her but to hear her explain it I seem like a savior of some sort, hell even her mother thanked me for taking care of her. I explained I was doing nothing more than I would do for someone I loved which she is my beautiful wife and it is my job to always protect her and take care of her nothing more than the way I was taught. Thanks Mom and Dad for teaching me to be human, I have heard I'm sorry for causing you to be inconvenenced or being a burden makes me mad as hell to think people treat another human being like nothing more than an object to use and discard when they no longer serve their purpose. God will be the only one to save his soul because if our paths ever cross my demon will take his life. If you claim to be a dominate or a master always remember it comes with great responsibility for not only protecting one physically but also mentally and emotionally remember it's a life your resonsible for. My beautiful lioness through all her sickness has made my house a home with a christmas tree, decorations, and scents of the season, she has made sure everyone is taken care of for christmas no mater how small a gift. I honestly can't understand why such a beautiful person like her would ever want someone like me but she reminds me everyday with her beautiful smile that I am loved and taken care of, only thing I'll ever need is her love. To all we wish you the very best this Holiday Season and in life I hope you find what makes your soul happy. Seasons Kinky Greeting from Lion and Hazel Eyes.

Tomorrow will mark 6 months since we met, I truly can't imagine my life without my beautiful lioness. In that time we have learned many things about each other and I can't say any are bad because we're so much alike. Since she got here many things have happened and new things are happening now but she has showed me what the meaning of strong is not just physically but mentally, and emotionally. My oldest chilld is going through a divorce and she was right there to give support and make my grandson feel special, he adores her like if he has known her all his life. with the holidays here she has brought a new sense of purpose to my life, before I never really cared one way or another about holidays. We have a Christmas tree and the house is decorated something that hasn't happened in atleast 10 years, she is making sure everything is perfect for my family. I already knew but on Thanksgiving my youngest child let her know he was transgendering a big step for someone he just met that is why she is so special to me accepting of all that has happened since she got here just a few short months ago. So yesterday they went shopping for a new clothes for her, it seems they have become quite the pair of shopping buddies. She asked me why I think she is so great I don't think I could ever descibe the angel I see in her but I can say it's the caring, loving sympathetic, smart, beautiful, wonderful human being she is this is why I think she is great and will love her forever and I will try my best to make sure she knows. She has also felt like she doesn't do enough for me, I can honestly say that she has done more for me that any other I have had in a relationship. Please all chime in, I don't work due to my past gunshot issues, so I have my time free, I take care of the house. Usual chores laundry, cleaning, vaccuming, cooking, running errands. She works a job eight hours a day, has to drive back and forth everyday and deal with people, comes home to do homework for her classes, has to put up with me 2 cats and 1 dog and still helps out around here with things. Wouldn't you all agree she is doing quite alot because I have no complaints I get to eat bon bons all day and watch soap operas. I belive in equal when it comes to a relationship but if one side needs help then the scale tips in that direction until in time the balance is equal again. Until she gets her degree I will do whatever it takes to make her life stress free as I can. On both our behalfs I would like to wish everyone a wonderful holiday season, may it be filled with love, hope and all things good. Big Hug to all. Lion and his beautiful Lioness

I want to ask this question what is love? Is it a feeling an emotion or both.  How does one register what love is to them, I have seen people that equate love with objects, money, status. You don't love me because fill in the blank as to what they want or need, do we associate love with certain feelings, emotions, or the way we're treated? Is being faithful, respectful, honest, kind, and caring a reason to love someone or to be loved is there a physical or emotional reaction that is supposed to happen when we love or are loved? Some associate sex as love you don't love me because you're not getting it on the schedule you want. What determines love for us can only be determined by us, I believe it's different for everyone not an all around experience felt by all. With that I will explain why I asked this question, ever since I was a child I have never had a reaction to hearing the words I love you for me it's like hearing have a good day. It's a nice sentiment but I don't feel my heart strings being pulled. Please understand I love with every fiber of my being to those that I care about some more than others but I can't seem to feel it when it's told to me. I know that I'm loved but I wonder if something is broken with me, I feel fear of losing the ones I love, sadness if I lose them I can't imagine my life without my beautiful lioness and I pray every day that she knows how much I love her. I know she loves me by the way she treats me and that she tells me every day how much she loves me. I just want to know what am I supposed to feel when someone tells me they love me, the thought of ever losing her brings fear to me is that how I know I'm loved? From inside my own feelings and emotions I associate love with trust, loyalty, respect, caring, kindness every thing my beautiful lioness is and so much more. I know that from our past that it sometimes dictates what we determine love is for us in the future when finding someone who will either guard our heart or rip it to pieces. I am learning everyday how to reconnect my feelings with my heart so I may feel the same way she does when I tell her that I love her. I want to know what that feels like, to my beautiful lioness as you are now sleeping know in your heart how much I love you now and forever.  

Come Monday it will be our 3 week anniversary hard to believe that. Seems time goes by so fast lately, she's been at her job for a month now and I have gotten more done than I have in the 6 months before we met.  Update my son solved his own problem and we won't be having guest living here but were doing all we can to help him. She had my parents over for dinner and was such a host to my mother that my mother said I'm not used to this which I replied welcome to my world. She is the most amazing person I've ever known, in just a few short weeks we'll spend our first Thanksgiving together and I couldn't be more thankful than I am to have her in my life. She has been plotting with my parents about my Christmas gift and I have been plotting with her mother so all is fair in love and war. She had to work on Halloween but we were talking when my grandchildren showed up my grandson is enamored with her, my family loves her so much and I am very happy she knows that. We spent the day shopping for her a winter coat and she kept trying to buy me one always thinking about others before herself one of the many reasons why I love her. Things have been kinda stressful around here but it's getting better, lots of things we had to do to get her settled and her doing homework. As the days get colder and the holidays get near I hope everyone has someone to be with or support from family and friends this time of year can be brutal. Remember to take time for yourself, let the world slip away for a moment to breathe and relax before it spins out of control. Love you all. Lion ?

So I have to say I honestly didn't think I could ever find someone as special as my lioness.  Today is our one week anniversary of being married, on our wedding night my oldest son hit us with a bomb. Now for all that don't know I have a transgender child and it seems that my son in law has been mentally abusing my grandkids. Let me say being old has advantage over losing your shit and doing something that you will regret later. Now needless to say that by the middle of the week we are going to have my son, my grandkids and a dog moving in with us. Let me also say that I already have a dog and two temperamental cats so this is going to get really interesting fast trying to figure out how to make it all work. With Hazel eyes working afternoon to midnight, my son's job working late morning to evenings and two grandchildren going to school all day and me being up all night with my issues. The only thing I keep thinking is how special this woman is to pack up her life, move halfway across the country, get a job, and now deal with my family being thrown into the house. I truly am the most luckiest man alive to have her not run away screaming or packing her stuff and moving back home. To you my beautiful lioness you are stronger both mentally and physically than you give yourself credit for and always know how much I love you and appreciate you. I love you my angel. 

So like most you go to the store for two items and come home with a trunk load of stuff. It's been kind of crazy getting Hazel eyes settled in, got her titles changed for this state, her driver's license is next, we bought a motorcycle when we were just looking. So I have been her personal chauffeur ever since she got here and now am taking her to work every day since she started her new job. So yesterday we went to see my insurance agent about getting her insurance it was going to be high, came home and she called her company about updating her new location, price went up.  Understand that we had set a date to get married in a couple of years, but after hearing how much it was going to cost her for insurance I suggested we get married so we got a marriage license and as of 7pm October 14th my lioness is now my beautiful wife, I couldn't be happier knowing that she is mine forever. I'm sure some are going to think we are crazy but I can't imagine my life without her, she knows what I'm thinking before I do, we have so much in common it's kinda scary but in a wonderful way. Oh and when we stop by my parents house to show them the rings and let them know I told my mother that she will be all mine and can never leave, my mother said well you have ropes I'm sure you can keep her tied up that's what you enjoy. I about died, my mother does know her son, we just smiled at each other. To all I wish only the best and a big hug to all.