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Sometimes my thoughts are jumbled and makes not since or reasoning. Right now I’m trying so hard to be me and find who I am. But it’s not always so easy to be the person I want to be either I’m to nice or I’m to much of a asshole. Or I’m just not around so anyone can really get to know me. I stay to myself. I stay alone. I hind from the person that scares me the most. But how can you hind from yourself. I wonder because no matter what yourself is always there always with you no matter where you go or how hard you try to hind. Yourself will always find you and yourself will never leave you. Sometimes I wish I could slow down my thoughts. So it don’t seem like they are all over the place. But at times it is so hard to do. Here is what I know about me so far. I am a gamer, I am a lover more then a fighter but will fight for what I believe in. I am a collector of many things if I start collecting something it is hard for me to stop. Even when I see it is a waste of time and money. I am broken wish I could say I’m not. I do have a hard time staying in one place or with the same woman for a long pointed of time. It takes a lot to get me mad or emotional. I am a romantic and sometimes when I have a ideal in my head of how I want a date or a romantic dinner to go and some reason it can’t go the way I want it to then. My thoughts go hey wire trying to figure out what to do next. I know I need to settle down and stay in one place. But maybe after I find where I truly be long. I have low self worth. Out side of work. Sometimes my depression tells me no matter what you are never good enough. Even know I know I am good enough and I can do whatever I put my mind to. I am a Primal dom. I also know who I am with all I want to do is take care of her in every way that I can. I have to treat her like she should be treated.