littleonehoping(sub female){Earning}

Submitting with Purpose

All subs submit. But do we truly know the beauty of our submission. The beauty of releasing it all. Of putting our hope and trust in another. This is my journey to find not only my submission but the purpose it serves for myself and others.

Questioning everything

5 years ago. July 28, 2019 at 1:33 AM

How come some people can take the tiniest part of your heart

And make you feel whole

While others can take your whole heart and tear it apart so you never feel whole again

How come the bad guys seem to outdo the good guys

Or make it so you never trust any man, anywhere

Could ever be a good guy for you

How come pain from people can run so deep

It causes you to run to a razor, or drugs, or booze

And hurt yourself physically just to match your broken heart

How come a man's words can bring you to your knees in love

Or can bring you to your knees as you cry out tears into your pillow

Remembering every cruel thing he said

How come some people can take the lifestyle

And make you remember why you ever submitted

While others make you regret the day you ever surrendered

How come the good men finish last,

The bad men win my heart over

And I lay here shattered, broken, and hoping one day to be made whole

How come these scars run so deep

How come this world seems so dark

How come even the tiniest glimpse of trust I no longer can give

I lay here tonight

Crying as memories of the past circle my mind

And all I can ask is....how come?

Thank you all for reading. This is something I had to write as I am now torn between the desire to surrender to a man I know is safe and potentially leaving the lifestyle altogether. A Dom from my past resurfaced in a cruel act against me and it reminded me why I feared this lifestyle and the harm it can bring. I am in a place where I don't want any man to touch me. To speak to me. To have the chance to hurt me. I love this lifestyle. I treasure my submission. But at times like this.....I just wonder why I'm even in it.

MrSpankAngel(dom male){hbk} - The bad guys should not win. But also you should always do what you are comfortable with.
Hugs. Many hugs.

5 years ago

Angelnthedark(switch female) - Hugs!!! I understand your struggle... That's why I haven't been able to go into the lifestyle with my all..
I don't look at it like the bad guys win. I won't give them that much power. I just take everything with a caution. I know that I will find what I am looking for but I also have to heal my own self. I am the one with the power for myself. You can always email me.

5 years ago

Dellydoodah(neither female) - You need to be safe, only then can you be your whole self. Living in fear is no fun. Any relationship is about compromise.
Nobody can look after you the way you can. Be well, be safe x

5 years ago

PappaBear - Take it slow... turn your bullshit detector on high and pay strict attention to those red flags... if it doesn’t feel quite right... put on the brakes. Slow down and be sure before you proceed. Now, it’s wonderful to find someone to connect with and gift your submission too... but it should take time... and it should not feel forced. Unfortunately, it’s way too easy to for those “bad guys” to find the information and pretend to be what you’re looking for. That makes it more important than ever to educate yourself on what his end of the dynamic should look like.

If it’s quick, it won’t be amazing... if it’s amazing, it won’t be quick.

A Dom, and in particular a Daddy Dom, should be willing to take that time.

5 years ago

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littleonehoping​(sub female){Earning}

Submitting with Purpose

Questioning everything

littleonehoping(sub female){Earning}