I'm not quite over the hill, but I'm creeping up to the top.
Tomorrow I turn 39. For the first time in all those years I can honestly say that I want and need for nothing. I don't need a party to feel loved or remembered. I AM loved and remembered every single day. I don't want any gift because the truth is that most times a birthday gift has been one of the few moments people stop to show they are paying attention and noticing me and saying "hey, I am being thoughtful, see!" .... He is thoughtful ALL the time, without needing an occasion, in ways that make a planned moment feel forced.
Sure, it would be better if I had been able to get there a week earlier so that I'd wake up next to Him... but it was a choice to push the visit later into the summer. It was a choice He made for U/us. It's the RIGHT choice, and I do not feel deprived.
It's a beautiful feeling right now sitting here and having this feeling of absolute contentment knowing that literally nothing more is needed.
Thank You for all the ways You love me every single day, care for me and about me every single day, and are thoughtful beyond all measure all the time. Thank You for walking up this hill with me. I'm looking forward to sitting on the top of the mountain with You, and for the slide down the other side. I am looking forward to the fun!
~His slave Mikayla
