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Ever Evolving

Expression of my thoughts, feelings, and me growing to love my side I kept hidden.
4 weeks ago. Mon 16 Sep 2019 03:15:42 PM IDT

I am the woman who wants to still believe in fairytales. Who at times, is afraid of the things that go bump in the Dark. I dream of the white knight in slightly tarnished armour who will protect me. I love all things that glitter and shine, my eyes go wide in wonder. My favorite color is pink. I would love if my whole wardrobe could be all ribbons and pearls and sweetly feminine. I often dance and sing and giggle like a little girl. I will bounce on my toes jumping and clapping, my eyes sparkling in joy. I'm sensitive and there are moments I easily cry. I want to please and be told I am a good girl. I like to believe everyone is innately good, though I am smart enough to realize this isn't always true. If I give you my trust cherish it, because it is very hard for me to. I have demons that haunt me. I find it easier to trust animals as like me they are loyal, loving and don't want to harm you. In past I have blindly followed others and didn't question or speak my opinions or feelings, though recently I have found my voice. I love cuddles and affection, Daddy's little smirk at my antics.

 

There is this other side of me that is slowly coming out. She is darkly sensual. She scoffs at the girly wardrobe and says let have peekaboo lace panties, curve hugging clothing, and sexy lingerie. She craves things that flusters and makes my good side blush. She needs to be allowed to explore her sexuality and not be suppressed anymore. I embrace her yet at same time she scares me. She may be challenging at times but never disrespectful, more of a bratty tease. That stern voice and look makes her moan and pant. She desires the sting of pain on her ass and clit, hands wrapped around her throat and making it hard to breath, being forcefully taken for his pleasure. This sides eyes gleam in pleasure and wickedly invites you to show her more. The problem is at times this side overwhelms and overrides common sense. The good girl side says no, take it slow...be careful....stick to your limits. The sensual side laughs and says what's limits. She wants to just open herself up to so many sensations, and new experiences, but she doesn't stop to think,  just feels. I have come to accept and love her. Now I am finding a balance between the two sides. Using the common sense from the one to keep the other safe. Allowing the others curiosity open me up to new experiences. For her slightly more outspoken bratty side to protect me from harm. By nurturing and accepting both sides I have come to realize what a beautiful, amazing, sexy woman I am.  No one can take that from me without my permission.

 

 

 

Here4fun2learn​(sub female){Taken} - We are similar in a lot of ways. And you are beautiful. Please keep that confidence and don't let anyone tell you you're not or any less. Very nicely written blog, my friend.
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DarkKitten​(sub female){ObsidianWo} - Same for you love. I enjoyed talking to you last night and would love to keep in touch.
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dollMaker​(dom male){SaViDa} - Both sides are not mutually exclusive, two sides to the same person. Embrace them, but be careful, safety focussed and take your time. Keep common-sense firmly in play.
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DarkKitten​(sub female){ObsidianWo} - Thanks for looking out for me DM. I know I have been like a kid in the candy shop and that sweet tooth had overrode common sense and self preservation.
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Here4fun2learn​(sub female){Taken} - I enjoyed talking to you as well and would definitely like to keep in touch. 🤗
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Kinkyp69​(dom male){Dellydooda} - Love your blog here! You put to words many here are trying to find voice for! You are finding balance and respect for yourself and the person you are! Just lovely!
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Sweet ginger​(sub female){My Sir Don} - This was well written.. I think you touched on what a lot of woman feel not just in the lifestyle as we grow, learn and find ourselves.. What we want and don't want and to never settle for anything less.. Sometimes we all stumble and make mistakes that's also how we grow.. Best of luck to you..
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