i’ve been on this community for a while. I’ve talked to many people, I’ve interacted. But I wonder what it is about me, or others, that makes me seem like I’m talking to myself. I’m sure others have similar experiences, it’s tough to take sometimes.
Looking to find a connection and that it has proven difficult.
So I was recently contacted by someone who lives in another country and after four or five emails, basically shut me down because I’m not looking to move out of the country for someone I’ve never met and have no relationship with.
Is it me?
I’m thinking no! Scratching my head…
Had a lot of stuff going on in my personal life, still a few things to be sorted out, but I’m getting there.
At this point, I guess I’m just feeling a little out of sorts, and just enjoying reading what others are posting.
Don’t know that I have the energy to pursue anything right now so I’m just gonna kick back and enjoy a little peace and quiet.
so it didn’t work out. I try to be an optimist, but clearly that hasn’t worked out. Back to the drawing board as they say. Although I think I’m rather tired of drawing.
He is everything’s that I want, everything I need. We are taking it slow. He and I both have trauma that we’re dealing with. I am being patient and letting him lead, which is hard for me. I’m just hoping that he decides I’m the one.I’ve already decided that he is the one for me
I’ve met someone who has serious potential, he gets me in a way that no one else has.
he’s funny, smart, handsome, and our kinks align in so many ways.
And he feeds my little, which is paramount.
I’m still trying to figure her out, I realized she’s been with me for a very long time, but I haven’t given her the attention she needs. He allows me to do that,
And he has taught me that patience is so important in this dynamic, so I allow him to lead me through it.
That is all.
I left this world for a while because I had a lot of life issues that I had to deal with. But I’m back in immersing myself back into the place I belong.
Seems some things are the same, some never change, but i have. I’m looking at relocating my life. Going back home to where I am comfortable and feel safe, comfortable and secure.
I left the life because I thought it was a faze, but clearly, after having an absence of two years, something drew me back.
That’s enough for now
Not being able to sleep. My brain goes and goes and goes and goes and goes. Meanwhile I’m flopping around like a fish on the dock. Sometimes it’s really hard to sink into sleep. Going for another try!
I still search for him. We will have a conversation, which will turn into many more conversations which will make me ask questions, and he will ask questions. And we will do the dance and get to know each other. And all of this because I need him and he needs me, though we haven’t met yet. We will know!
So I’ve been gone a few months and have been trying to get my life in order. I recently started a business which has taken a lot of my time. I’ve also asked myself what do I need in my life. I’ve dabbled in finding someone in a vanilla relationship, and while there are parts of that which are endearing, I don’t know that I can be truly happy. My first Dom still tries to reel me back in, but I do know that he’ll never give me what I need. That brings me back to the question of what do I need? So here I am, trying to figure it out, And still wishing for him❤️