Random thoughts of a newbie

So I’ve been gone a few months and have been trying to get my life in order. I recently started a business which has taken a lot of my time.  I’ve also asked myself what do I need in my life. I’ve dabbled in finding someone in a vanilla relationship, and while there are parts of that which are endearing, I don’t know that I can be truly happy. My first Dom still tries to reel me back in, but I do know that he’ll never give me what I need. That brings me back to the question of what do I need?  So here I am, trying to figure it out, And still wishing for him❤️