I have to admit, I’m just about beaten. And not in the good way. I don’t expect overnight success. I don’t expect an instant connection where it’s destined in the stars for us to be together. That being said, when I DO expect is that I don’t go through vetting someone for a week before they flake out, freak out, or freak me out.
You can’t possibly love me in a week of phone calls and texting. You can’t possibly want to relocate across the country amid the same. You can’t possibly think that you’re going to change my life so profoundly without really knowing who I am. You might know some of me, but you don’t know all of me.
I am not a fucking project! I don’t need rescuing, and I don’t need fixing. What I DO need is patience, understanding, love, acceptance, and a fucking right spanking when I don’t behave.
What I don’t need is passive aggressive remarks about my past, or talking to me as if I don’t understand basic communication skills and courtesy. I’m the most courteous of people you’ll ever meet, until you no longer deserve courtesy.
I have my issues, both mental, physical, scars however you want to attribute it to where I am today. But I don’t need glue and glitter, I need grit and consistency. I need someone who can step up and actually be there for me when I need them, and not TELL me what they’re going to do to change my life. Words don’t matter, actions do .
Stepping off my soapbox, have a good night!
