Life has it's little mysteries, it's own way of leading us and guiding us to newfound worlds inside our own little corner of time. Such is this day. Last night was like any New Years Eve, The clock was ticking, the ball in New York was waiting to drop, the midwestern wind was howling outside, and the clock was making it's way toward a New Year and decade like so many times before.
Then, from out of the blue, the little mail indicator popped up here on The Cage. The message was simplistic in nature, straight forward and to the point. It merely inquired "Are you looking for a sub?". I did the normal check, read the profile before considering a reply, and the profile was brand new. Yes, I know what this normally indicates, but something odd inside my soul urged me to at least reply, so in kind fashion I simply replied "yes".
Now I had replied to a few of the classifieds on here,and posted my own as well, most all with no reply, the rest that did not work out past a message or two... so The Cage was not some place I was anticipating finding a new dynamic, just good friends, good people, and good advice. What followed next, even now in reflection still amazes me. After a few messages back and forth between us, I began to realize that somehow, I might actually have found a person I enjoyed talking to, in my proximity, ( and trust me, SE Iowa is not an area overpopulated with potential partners), who I would genuinely like to explore the possibility of a dynamic with!
We chatted back and forth until the same clock that had welcomed a New Decade into my life also reminded me that it was far past time to go to bed. By the end of the conversation, to my utter amazement, I had done something characteristically unlike me. I had suggested to this fascinating surprise of a new decade that we explore a dynamic together, each free to exit at will with no ill feelings, and she had agreed! I reflected back on a scene in "Remember the Titans" when the linebacker said " Listen, when something unexpected comes, you just got to pick it up and run with it."
Yes, we are definitely in the infantile stages of exploring, just barely knowing other at all, and hoping for the best. And who knows what the future holds? Not I for certain, but I am compelled to explore this new world, to see what may become, I am determined to enter it with my eyes wide open, one step at a time, slowly and deliberately taking each step together to the clicking sounds of the clock that ushered in this new experience.
~K~
