Let me start by saying the people I have met and known on The Cage are some of the most wonderful people I could ever have met, and I am both deeply honored and privileged to have met you all! Thank you just for being you!
That being said, this journey in pursuit a true dynamic has been several years in the making now, and is no more fruitful than the day I took my first step. However, along the way I have learned things about myself I never knew, and considered many MANY things that I would not have previously even noticed. All this culminates in the loss of my sister to cancer, and my newfound respect for what life we all are granted on this Earth. At 62 years old, I just don't want to waste any of whatever time I myself still have (and no, there is nothing wrong with me that I know of). So it is with a saddened heart that I am abandoning the pursuit of a dynamic. No longer will I hold out for it, wait for it, seek it out. I took the playroom apart, disassembled the furniture and gave it to a friend for their bonfire, and am in the process of liquidating all the toys, kind of like Cortés and his ships when he got to North America....
I will however, take a stand of rebirth. I am going to take it all in along the way, go out of my way to see the wonders this world has to offer, and try to find the good in as many people as I can. I am going to tun my sight "inside myself" as the song says, "to try and understand, the serenity of a clear blue mountain lake". And when God decides it is my time to leave, like the woman in Meet Joe Black, I hope I can say I have enough pictures :)
Does this man I am giving up on relationships? No, if it happens, so be it, let it happen, if not, I will walk alone, and find and explore all I can. I am not leaving the Cage, I'll be around, just not in pursuit.. :)
