Kindness

She was philosophical about losing the connection

The minx was cunning and boldly flirtatious but lacked the calling to maintain.

She became reflective, deep in thought finding answers to questions no one ever asked for or wanted to know.

On one side she was defiant, a challenge! She resisted and fought her parameters.

Only to became melancholy, feeling pensive with great sadness, there was no obvious cure.

If only she could recapture her youth.

Ageless in her mind, not looking old or appearing to grow old.

But she was!

friend·ship
noun
a state of mutual trust and support between allies

Friends are loyal
Friends are true
Friends are always there for you

If you have trouble
If you are blue
They will be there to see you through

But what if they cant
They tried you see
Its time to just set them free!

The times were special
my heart hurts so bad
i am feeling so very sad.

Master reads me like a book
He hears that tone
He sees that look

He knows his slave so very well
she is compliant, she strives to excel

He always asks alot of me
To be the rock when He cant be

But then He reads me like a book
He hears that tone
He sees that look.

He knows his slave so well you see
He knows masturbation is the key

He also knows the need to be alone
A special time to get in the zone

When there is no one else to please
except for greedy little me!

And i'm feeling good!

😇

Play responsibly! Lol!

…She had wild eyes, slightly insane. She also carried an overload of compassion that was real enough and which obviously cost her something.
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The high cost was worth the struggle, the chastity was needed for reflection and to become resolved. The need was great to please my Sir and gain back respect after a disappointment.

i was succeeding, i was strong and then i was rewarded.

Sir took possession of his property! Masterfully playing with his slave reminding her that ecstasy was worth waiting for when given by her lover!

in·tro·spec·tion
noun
the examination or observation of one's own mental and emotional processes.

Introspection is the examination of one's own conscious thoughts and feelings. In psychology, the process of introspection relies exclusively on observation of one's mental state, while in a spiritual context it may refer to the examination of one's soul.

Introspection involves examining one’s own thoughts, feelings and sensations in order to gain insight.

1. IT ALLOWS YOU TO NOTICE NEGATIVE PATTERNS IN OUR LIFE

2. IT KEEPS YOU FOCUSED ON THE BIGGER PICTURE.

3. IT PREVENTS YOU FROM WORRYING ABOUT THINGS OUT OF YOUR CONTROL.

4. IT HELPS YOU FACE YOUR FEARS

5. IT ALLOWS YOU TO CLEARLY DEFINE HAPPINESS ON YOUR OWN TERMS.

6. IT ALLOWS YOU TO MAKE DECISIONS BASED ON YOUR CONSCIENCE.

Eight days of chastity may not sound like much to some but an addict will understand that 8 days sober is a mile stone.

The reflection that has developed due to extra time in my day since not being preoccupied with sexual stimuli has taken this slave to an introspective place.

Detacting somewhat from technology and looking out at the real world has taken me to a less hurried place. However it has also caused me to lose a bit of my insatiable desire. It is disconcerting which increases the need to continue with the introspection .

I have been asking others lots of question about their own desires and fantasies, asking about their kink and what keeps them engaged without becoming obsessed.

Is there anyone who really has it all, can you have it all?

A few look at me as greedy because i seem to have so much of what others crave. i have a loving Sir who holds me close and is my soul. He is a strong dominant that takes the lead! i am treasured for my gift of submission. i am told repeatedly everyday how loved i am and how much He desires me.

Master is satisfied, what is wrong with me? Why do i continue to search for new and different experiences?

Is it my fear of aging, of lossing this feeling of desire? Is it the fear that if i dont use it i'll lose it?

I havent found the answers to all of my questions and probably never will but Master is wise and has slowed his minx down so now i am able to gain more knowledge as to what is important.

Quality more than quantity may be the answer.

Day 5: Task VI: Cuddles

He is my lover
He is my friend
i know this will last
Til the very end

He holds me
He folds me
He molds me too

Into that person
Tried and true

He is my lover
He is my friend
i know this will last
Til the very end

He wraps me up
In His arms each day
Keeping all my fears away.

He is my lover
He's my best friend
I know now this will never end

There is nothing that is better to me than cuddles and snuggles.

My Sir is my lover and my very best friend.

Day 5 is the best day yet! Thanks to my one and only Master!

DAY 4:  TASK V: Research sexual addiction

Are you hypersexual?

Compulsive sexual behavior is sometimes calledhypersexuality, hypersexualitydisorder or sexual addiction. It's an excessive preoccupation with sexual fantasies, urges or behaviors that is difficult to control, causes you distress, or negatively affects your health, job, relationships or other parts of your life.

This research may take longer than 30 days, lol!

Side note: i was chastised for the mistake of referring to Masters cunt as my own. The reminder came with 5 clit smacks and a spanking.

Later in the day i was treated to an edge on Sir"s knee. Who knew how much fun edging could be. Thanks for the lesson friend! You know who you are!

Yes i think i may be hypersexual because i can identify with 9 out of 10 symptoms. i suppose i should seek help. Is there a doctor in the house, i think i have some things that need to be examined.