Indigolover{Beast}

Indigo Blue

This blog is about being true to who we are in the lifestyle we have chosen to live. I will encourage, entertain, and delight you all with poems, erotic stories, and personal experiences with me and My Dom Latinobrusier(Beast). Thank you all that follow me. You are my Indigo Fam.

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3 years ago. June 3, 2021 at 7:29 PM

Hello Indigo Fam,

I come to you with sadness in my heart. My oldest daughter was pregnant with my first grand baby, a boy she was naming after her father who died 3 years ago. We she wasn't due till 7/12, but for the last couple of weeks kept going into labor. She went to the hospital Tuesday night in pain. Shortly after arriving they discovered he had passed away. I was by her side when they induced labor so she could deliver him naturally. I held my grandson for a couple of hours yesterday morning. No sound, just peacefully rocking him. Praying there was a mistake and he would open his eyes and breathe.

You are my community ♥. My strength lies where I am truly loved. My Dom has been taking good care of me, but I felt I needed to reach out to my family....my community. Any words of encouragement is greatly appreciated. Grieving is hard physically and mentally.

Peace and love

Indigo

acquiesced(sub male) - so sorry

3 years ago

mab{His} - I'm so so sorry to read this. Take comfort that he is in heaven.

3 years ago

SweetSirRendering(sub female) - i am so sorry. my heart reaches out to you. time will help you live with this loss, so hold one another closely until it becomes easier to bear alone. which it sounds like you won’t ever have to do not really, blessed with so much love in yours lives.

3 years ago

SageFlame(sub female) - So unexpected. Such loss of hope. I know the dreams that come with expecting time and memories with a child that slips away too quickly. The fact that you held him will help thread the senseless pain to a place of peace someday. My heart is heavy with this news. Your not alone. As you go through the waves of emotion please remember to care for yourself. I know you will be helping others but I encourage you to take time for your own process as well.

((Hugs))

3 years ago

SirsBabyDoll(sub female){Pizza+☕} - Indigo, I am also an "Angel Mom" so I completely understand your daughter's pain. There are and will never be any words that will make it ok. There is never anything that will suddenly make the loss suddenly less painful. Your family has lost more than just a grandchild. You lost a hope, a dream of the future. It is a pain that will always be with you and for that, I am deeply sorry. This is a 'club' that should have no members but it is larger than expected.

My advice to you would be this, never EVER stop talking about your grandson. Embrace the life he DID have, in the womb. Feel all the feelings, even the one you cannot name. It's ok to cry, scream, yell, blame, deny, all of it. It's part of the grieving process.

Eventually, the pain becomes easier to carry and you can take a breath without the pain shooting through your heart, but in the mean time, it is going to be hard. Lean on each other. TALK to each other. Use the skills you learned when starting a dynamic to help you and your family through the grief. Communication, safe space holding, acceptance of limits, aftercare. All of it can help support each other through the muck and mire of pain.

If you want to talk more, my mailbox is open.

3 years ago

OraclePollon(sub female){NotYours} - Comment deleted by poster.

3 years ago

OraclePollon(sub female){NotYours} - Sending you as much love as needed to get you through these hard times for you and your daughter.

3 years ago

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