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4 years ago. February 23, 2020 at 3:27 AM

Recently I began a relationship with a new daddy who I adored. We both loved the same sort of kinks, got along well and texted daily. However, my baby girl instincts picked on something and they unfortunately turned out to be correct. 

I have limited experiences with Daddy's at this stage in my journey, but from what I understand a Daddy's role is to nurture, guide, support, protect and help his baby girl be the best she can. Obviously there is the physical/sexual side to the relationship too. 

Anyway, so what happened was this: I had a bad day at work in which I made a mistake that I was terrified would cost me my job as I was on probation. My anxiety was of course making a mountain out of an mole hill and I turned to him for support. I told texted him that i'd had a bad day and I was worried i'd lose my job. All that he said to me was, "oh no, I hope not." He didn't ask what had happened or tried to reassure me. 

The next day he simply messaged me, "Are you okay?" to which I replied, "No." And I wasn't because I was mad with him. I felt let down. 

When he texted me again, I did explain that he had upset me and he never replied back. 

In my eyes he has failed me. 

The mistake I'd made at work ended up being fixed in ten minutes and I didn't face any consequences because, as it was so rationally pointed out to me by my fiancé, I was new and hadn't been trained sufficiently so the blame couldn't be placed on me. He made me see the situation without my anxiety goggles.

Now at this point you may be thinking, why did you turn to your daddy first instead of your fiancé? Well on that day I got home to an empty house, as my fiancé was on his way home and I was in a panicked fuelled state and simply messaged my daddy because he was available. It's as simple as that. 

I'm glad I found out early on that he wasn't really a daddy, and so my journey can continue...

 

CHB

cdistic{No} - I’ve had the same problem with a few dom and granted each one is different and have their own lives especially if it’s online. But I did learn something from one of the Doms because I did exactly what you did and got upset at him for not being there in the way I needed. He said he wasn’t aware he was needed so much because of my relationship with my man at home. I’m not saying your Daddy thought the same but it’s possible. But in all honesty yes a Daddy should be at tentative and ease your anxiety’s or he isn’t a good Daddy
4 years ago
PlyableMs​(sub female) - Sorry to hear that. As a newbie myself I can empathize with having expectations or not know exactly what to expect and looking for someone to lead the way. Hope that makes sense.
4 years ago
SSG{ENM-TLP} - I read your post last night and didn't comment because I wanted to think it over. I came back to read how you communicated with him. Just a word of advice for the future, if you are trying to communicate serious pain to your dominant, a text isn't really the appropriate way to do that. Unless of course that text is, "Daddy, I am hurting and I need you RIGHT NOW." You needed his voice. His voice saying, "Oh, I hope not," could have been received a lot differently. Another thing, if he had heard your voice, and your voice communicated true worry, it would have given him a chance to respond to you. When you are relying on text to communicate, you have to include all of the things the other person isn't able to pick up on. You need a "code" of sorts that is only used when you are truly needing him. For example, don't use the same emoticons that you use when you're upset your pizza is late. We tend to do that. It needs to be a clear, DADDY!!! I NEED YOU! So, unless there is far more to this story than what you've shared here, I don't think you gave him a fair shake. Just think it over. I'm not saying that he IS a Daddy, but I don't think the evidence listed here is enough to indicate that he is not. If you haven't burned that bridge, you may want to consider trying again, and if you do, an apology for a quick response without talking things through would be in order. His response tells me he had no idea what was going on. I hope things turn out the way you need. Another word of advice, if you need a Daddy--you may want to rethink this whole fiance thing. Spoken from 20+ years of marriage to the wrong man. It DOES make big difference in your life.
4 years ago
TheAnt​(dom male) - I hate to read these posts. They are heart breaking and personally as a Daddy, I get angry.
Cdistic, Dragon, and for the most part the rest of the commenters, are on point. A true Daddy Dom must place his little as the center of his universe. Failure to do so is a flag that cannot be ignored. He failed you and in turn broke the dynamic.
The good news there are lots of good Daddy Doms here (and some horrible ones too... write my little, Kitty, and she can give you advice on discerning the two).
As to SSG comments, we Daddy's are not perfect and do have our own issues. I know I have hurt Kitty's feelings a few times but I am "Daddy" enough to fix those times and despite any reason I may have thought I had for whatever I said that hurt her feelings, I accept all the blame. It is 99% (if not 100%) of the time my own personal experiences that caused me to "lash" out and hurt her feelings.
The fact that your former Daddy did not step up to the plate and fix himself, says a lot.
-DA
4 years ago
SSG{ENM-TLP} - Well would you look at who's here. Good to see you DA. Tell Kitty I said hello. Hope you guys are enjoying your life together. ssg{MJS}
4 years ago
SSG{ENM-TLP} - CHB, I have to apologize. Something I did NOT pick up on as much upon the second read was that you did write him and explain. He didn't respond. In that case, HE should have said, call me. Or HE should have called you. So please forgive me for overlooking that VERY important point. HE did fail in this situation. It was his responsibility to move you to a phone call. I am so sorry you had the experience that you did. I still stand firm on my advice on your fiance. Maybe talk to him about your desires. Maybe he can be the Daddy you need. Don't wait. For those of us who are further along in life, we would all like to be able to go back and fix those mistakes and reclaim lost time. BIG HUGS! The right one is out there. Hang in there.
4 years ago
TheAnt​(dom male) - SSG is on point on taking the fiancee and helping him be the Daddy Dom. I kept my kink life separate from my vanilla life and ultimately the vanilla relationship fails.
By involving the fiancee, the best of both worlds become one! There are many good Daddy Doms here. You can also reach out to my little, Kitty and she can help you guide too. You may also want him to pursue my leas than perfect blog for advice and Kitty's too for her slant on our dynamic. We may not be posting very much, but we are still active.
-DA
4 years ago
Litlegrl​(sub female){Dragon11} - I am very sorry this happened to you. Please know he is not worthy of being called a "daddy" because he didn't listen to your obvious need for support. I do agree with both SSG and DaddyAnt in maybe seeing if fiancee is interested. Completely understand if he doesn't, as that is situation I'm in with hubby. But that might be something to look into.
4 years ago
BeeGee​(sub female) - I am not sure who your Daddy was but I had the same problem with DD here before I met my person. he wouldnt ever show me his face. he would call in a private number and he never let me talk to him about my life without turning it into sex. He was not a Daddy and I was finally able to see that. good job on learning early on !
4 years ago

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