I'm am soo tired....tired of this...whatever this is....it isn't anymore....whatever we shared its slowly fading...slowly disapating into nothingness again and as it disappears you have noone but yourself to blame
I thought I could be your help..your guide...I wanted to be this for you so badly but as time progresses you seem to be digressing...and I can't go backwards....I can only move forward...
It was beautiful this brief moment when both of us were on the same plane of existence..
When we were able to be in each others universe....to actually feel each other....such beauty....such life was given back to both of us
But now that time has passed...that height of awareness can NEVER be reached again. .you've made sure of that....I can't be your crutch and you obviously DONT see value in your ownself...so how am I suppose to see value in whatever this MIGHT have been..
Whatever this COULD have been? You've killed this....you've made it clear you can't go forward and I can't go backwards...
And the fucking worst part about this is YOU'VE done this all before...you think this is going to help you but it will only hinder you my sweet....you'll back pedal until you're stuck...stuck in that ever turning loop that you were in when we first met....the one I freed you from...when I reached into that darkness and held you close and told you to embrace the darkness....its WHO WE ARE..but even in darkness we can see...and I can see...see us slipping away.....
I am here right now in this moment, and I want you to come with me into the perpetual darkness that is me...it is us....but I can't follow you back into that loop that for some reason you are so god damn comfortable in and I fucking hate it.....I hate even more that I let you in....that you made me let you in bc I knew this would happen...I knew it the first message that we exchanged but you have a way about you...almost like you enjoy the misery secretly....and as you capture souls to bring yourself out of the misery...you never truly leave it.....you always have something touching it...almost as if its your fucked up lifeline....and now I'm just another soul you thought you could take in, covet make your own to bring down into that misery you love soo dearly....but I cannot and will not go....you've already found another that will though and another...you've found a few that will so I will release you as you release me...our universe will never be in the same orbit again but you have left your mark on mine....it will forever be there for me to see and remember but never to have or touch your soul again....sadness can also be seen in darkness....I will hide mine away...forever.
