Master C's toy(sub female){Chevy}

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Little Displacement

5 years ago. October 29, 2019 at 5:37 PM

Feeling a little displaced today, but I'll fall back into place quickly. Had a good cry and now need to express myself to those who may understand.

I've been so lucky since my King collared me. I had the pleasure of seeing him at least once a week, sometimes more than once. So I was a little spoiled.

It's only been 3 days since I seen him and was hoping to see him today. But, he got called to work. He'll be gone at least 10 days and as soon as he gets home he'll be off again for probably another week. Whether I'll get to see him in between trips is not known just yet.

We won't have as much communication as we normally do while he's gone. So not being able to see him or talk to him as much is going to be sooooo hard.

He had warned me that there will be times like this but I'm not ready for it, I probably wouldn't have been ready even if he had given me a few days notice.

I do have a few important things to do while he's gone that will help me keep busy. Find a new female play partner, clean and set basement up for play space, and purge.

I stopped searching for a play partner because I was a bit leery of the subs/women in the area. We live in a very small city and because my King is married we need to find a very discreet partner. Not only that but someone who will dedicate themselves to us and their own vanilla partner if they have one. So I'm going to start looking again since I'll have so much time on my hands.

My basement is finished into one big room that will be perfect to play in. I have furniture down there that is perfect to enjoy all sorts of fun on. Need to put some eye hooks in the ceiling though...maybe some on one of the walls. At the moment it is used as a tv room and guest bedroom. I also use it as a storage room so I will have to move things around. This will be a fun task.

Then there is the purging I need to do badly. I'm not a hoarder but being that I have OCD it is hard to get rid of certain things that I had believed at one time were important. I think purging will be a good thing for me because many things I have kept were from my past. Now that I have my King I need to move on and let my old memories go.

I am not a depressive person, rarely feel sad or emotional, so I will be fine once the day passes and I have accepted the distance that will be there for awhile.

How things have progressed the last couple times I was with him really amped up the M/s dynamic we have, the way he had moved me deeper as his slave pulled me closer to him. So this separation will be a bit hard but I am a strong slave/woman...I will behave, obey, and keep myself busy while he is away.

TreasureMe(sub female){Consumed} - Being apart from your Sir, Master, Daddy, etc is always hard. I have an LDR with my Sir right now and its crippling at times so I totally get it. It sounds like you've got the right mind set of staying busy though, which is good. Just don't forget to self care. And im around if you need to chat. You got this girl. *huge hugs sent your way*

5 years ago

Master C's toy(sub female){Chevy} - Thank you TM...he will also give me little personal tasks from time to time and allowed to wear my collar when alone. Normally my collar is placed by him. With all the tasks I have I'll be busy for at least a week. And he will be very impressed when he gets home...I hope...😊
I will certainly keep you in mind when I need to talk, thanks again!

5 years ago

Morley(sub female){Max Sterne} - Sending hugs and love your way. I agree with TM, self care is important as this sounds like a little but if sub drop which is natural after your last time with him. The tasks will keep you busy (you can come purge my place after 😉). Again, much love and hugs to you! ❤️

5 years ago

Master C's toy(sub female){Chevy} - Thanks KB, it just might be a bit of drop. Self care is important and will certainly do that especially this evening. I'm sure I'll find more tasks, and be given them as the days go by, which I will be grateful for. I like to purge now and again. Gives me a sense of freedom...(I'll book my flight now...lol)
Thanks for the good vibes.

5 years ago

SSG{ENM-TLP} - Keeping yourself busy is a great step. I have to do that myself. There are times when I just don't feel like I want to do anything, so what I do is imagine that I am doing it for my One. I have gotten A LOT done imagining that. Maybe it will help you feel better about purging if you think of it like you're doing it for him. He will be so proud of you for overcoming your OCD enough to begin the process, at least. I do have a suggestion for you, if you'd like to try it. Get some boxes and sort things out. Goodwill. Trash. Sell. or whatever, those are just suggestions. Stack the boxes or move them where they are out of the way. Arrange for a friend to come when you aren't there to pick them up after you've gotten over the process of packing them. Actually write on the boxes, trash, or donate, or whatever. You will have already processed that. You'll keep seeing the boxes with the labels on them. It should help you mentally prepare for where they are going. You'll slowly get used to the idea that they will be leaving your house. Go ahead and start planning what you're going to do with the space once you get rid of them. That is the exciting part and should excite you about what is to come, taking your mind off of the fact the items are gone.

5 years ago

Master C's toy(sub female){Chevy} - Good morning girl, I just sent my King a message with a list of the things I'm doing today. He's seen my bedroom closet so I'm sure he will be pleased to see it less congested. His knowing what I'm doing will make it feel as though I'm doing it for him.
Thank you for the suggestions. It's mostly clothing and small memorabilia that will be purged. Or things that have been pushed to the back of the closets that has outlived it's need.
It will all keep me busy because if anything goes back into the closet it will be washed or cleaned first.
My basement will be rearranged, purged if need be, and set up for play without vanilla friends or family realizing. So all is good and will have fun.

5 years ago

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Master C's toy(sub female){Chevy}