First of all, my outfit describes me exactly at the moment. Knee high neon green socks with blue toes, yoga pants, a blue T-shirt, a pink robe, and a blue with neon green dotted bandana. A humorously put together mess, lol.
My life is what I choose it to be. If I want to be happy, I need to do what I need to do to get happy. Otherwise, I will stay a victim. I'm too proud to be a victim of circumstance. I'm never going to let him control me ever again. He is dead now. I win his sick, twisted game. I win, not him.
I have been questioning my place in the BDSM lifestyle. I have never been lucky enough to formally be a sub, but I am curious about what it would be like to be a Mistress. The possibility of having the trust of a man to be the one who they listen to and want to please turns me on. I wish I had others to mentor me. Help!!!