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Journey as a New Submissive

Here is where I will talk about the ups and downs of my journey to finding my mentor and naturing my submissive plus all the things that come with it!
4 years ago. June 2, 2020 at 10:12 PM

I went to my first vetting event on Saturday 5/30 2020 and it was very laid back. As I’m trying to find a group I can become  familiar with and truly get to know those in the group and learn new things. Upon arrival I had to show my ID as no one under 21 is allowed within the group I also had to sign a waiver and verbally agree to a set of rules. Once this was done I joined everyone at the event leaders living area. 

it was about 30-45 people in attendance not all new some people were vetted members and just wanted to come for conversations and to meet the newbies I guess. I was okay and unlike the play party my anxiety was at bay. I spoke to many subs of both genders and one kitten I had never met someone who did pet play so that was fun and she was adorable. At the start of the night the event leader spoke of rules, what happens if they are broken the 1st, 2nd and 3rd time, memberships, and types of play that is not always allowed some plays like breathe play, blood play and fire play, and Consensual non-consensual may not be allowed depending on where the event is being held. He introduced us to his DM staff all weren’t there but most were and told us about an upcoming party on Saturday that we could attend if we’d like because of this we would be vetted and the party was for vetted members only.

Once he was done I spoke with more subs and was at peace and relaxed. Until a gentlemen with the most captivating green eyes I Have ever seen in my life approached a group of us and asked if he could have a moment of my time. My head felt like it weighed ten pounds and my mouth was dryer than a desert. I nodded and he proceed to introduce himself. I only remember bits and pieces as I was focused on not running out of the house and going home. I know he could sense my unease and tried to lighten the mood but my body would not stop trembling. I don’t know why, he didn’t make me uncomfortable and he had a very nice easy going personality I talked to the subs just fine and I don’t even know what category he fell under because my mind wouldn’t Allow my mouth to form words. I hope he attends the play party because I don’t care if it takes every fiber of my being I WILL talk to him and apologize. 

thinking out loud 


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