Butterflies
Do you ever do something in life, just so you can say you did it? With no real hope or expectation that it will actually work out? Well that was me when I started this, there are reasons but that’s a whole different book. Countless messages, people, trial and error runs. The biggest thing was people wanted to get to sexual to quick. If you have read my blog before you know I want to know your favorite color first. When I got a message from him, I went to his profile, which he had a picture on and wanted to know everything about him. Favorite food, color, thing to do, favorite sport, place to travel the list is never ending. I got control of that want thinking, what if he just wants nudes or an online relationship only. Nothing wrong with either but it is not my cup of tea. I messaged him back wanting so much but expecting nothing it’s safer that way.
One message turned into other and then we exchanged numbers, the thought of talking to my dogs vet on the phone causes my anxiety to sky rocket, my mom still makes my doctors’ appointments. I wasn’t too scared because I thought 5 minutes of my giggling and my inability to piece together an intellectual sentence he will be done. Hahah boy I was wrong and happy to be wrong. Our first phone call lasted 3 hours and 19 minutes I have never in my 23 years of life talked to anyone for that long on the phone or otherwise I do not have the stamina. What was even wilder was I did not even realize it had been that long until he pointed it out. Our longest phone call was 8 hours and 15 minutes. Phone conservations can’t last forever can they? No, they can’t. Messaging, phone calls then meeting it is the progression of things right. When I started this journey, again I thought nothing would come of it.
He lives in Delaware and I live in South Carolina as a lover of traveling when he told me he would be heading to Niagara Falls at the end of August I thought perfect I can drive up to him about 11ish hours and see the falls. It would also give me enough time to look presentable; not thinking anything would work out there was no need to jump back on my diet. So when he asked me “when are you going to show me around Charleston? Not only a two hour drive from me but one of my favorite cities it feeds my soul and fully refuels my tank. To that I answered “uh.. um whenever you want?” He booked his flight and will be in Charleston in 12 days 22 hours and 17 minutes.
That is for sure not the end of August but I am still excited. I would have liked to look less gross maybe I can get down 10ish pounds by then if I eat lettuce and drink water keto old friend is that you. One of the thing I am excited about is seeing the pineapple foundation is my favorite thing in Charleston. While making our itinerary I saw a picture of it at night and it hit me that I had never saw it at nighttime. The only reason I am going to see it at night is because he will be with me, I am baby and do not stay out past sunset so I am pumped.
Reality….
