Back when I first joined the cage I read a blog that I totally agree with. The blog talked about twin flame and soulmates. This person goes on to explain that the twin flame is normally the person you end up with but that it doesn’t always happen as we sometimes make bonds with other we would never sacrifice and will end up as friends which is what happened to this person, his/her twin flame was married to a soulmate and wouldn’t give that person up so they became very good friends. The person goes on to say how there’s multiple soulmates and that it doesn’t always mean there’s a romantic interest, that sometimes it’s just friendship and family bonds. He/she says how in previous lives we might not have met our twin flame and ended up building a bond with someone else that was very good for us and eventually this person turned into our romantic soulmate while sometimes we will click very well with someone but it will just be friendship.
In recent times I have found that I completely agree. I have met here on the cage two people I believe were my soulmates. The way I recognize it is that I felt towards them things I didn’t feel towards other people and how we just fit in, like we were long lost friends or lovers. I’m also a form believer that my best friend is my soulmate and one that I will share an eternal friendship with.
I was looking back at past memories and realize I did meet another soulmate in the past, one I was too young to recognize. We met when we were both teenagers while playing the same video game. We discovered we had one very big mutual interest. We loved music but we also loved laws. We were both debating over what to choose; music which fed out soul or law which fed our logical mind. We had both decided to go for laws and keep music as a hobby. We spent hours that day talking about music and laws and everything we could think of until he had to leave as we had about 6-8 hours time difference. Some time after our first talk he comes one day saying he has a song for me. A song he had composed the first time we met and talked. You see, while I love singing and writing lyrics he loved producing music and he specially loved house music. I was in awe of the song and extremely flattered and my heart may have skipped a few beats.
That was the beginning of a sweet and tender teenage romance. I’d feel so shy and blush when we would talk and his voice was just so lovely paired with the mix of a British and Romanian accent. I always wanted to spend time with him either on the game or talking on Skype. We would talk about how bad it was that we lived in different countries and couldn’t actually be together but we would plan how meeting in person would be like. He’d tell me how cold it was in England and I’d tell him how much I hate the cold and how my hands are always cold. He said he’d love walking with me while it was snowing and how he’d hold my hands and me closely so I wouldn’t feel cold, that he’d share his body heat with me. And even though I wasn’t very innocent and naive then, with him I felt like a girl that didn’t know much about the world and was innocent and had hearts in my eyes still. With him, I felt I could be a regular teenager and like the cutesy stuff couples do.
But sadly things didn’t turn out the way we hoped. I mean, I wouldn’t be in here if things turned out well with him. I’d probably be married and with kids by now! He started getting very busy with school and studying and the time difference didn’t help. We would try talking as much as we could but our lives were hectic and we just didn’t have the time. I was so sad and lonely. At that time I had already met the person who’d become my first love but was at that time my friend. I’d tell him all the time how I missed my boyfriend and how busy he was and I’d cry. He’d tell me to leave if I was so unhappy, that I deserved happiness. I’m stubborn so I didn’t listen until it reached the point that I just couldn’t take it anymore. He had a job and college(he was a year older so while I was in high school, he was already a college student). He didn’t have much time to get on his computer and spend time talking to me. I just held on to the words he’d say, the life we could see together while we talked and I wanted that so bad. But loneliness is a terrible enemy specially more so when temptation is around. I left him and after a few days of being sad I started dating the man that would become my first love. I left one soulmate for another. And I do not regret it. I experienced a love I didn’t even know I was capable. A love I keep trying to look for and glimpsed briefly last year with a sub here on the cage. But he too was a soulmate who wasn’t meant to be.
