It’s been over a year since I joined the cage and started my journey through BDSM. I’ve learned so many different things about this lifestyle and some I loved while others I hated. I found what type of domme I am while being here and what I want from a dynamic. I’ve pursued multiple subs, some switches and the rare doms that want to explore submission. I’ve met many wonderful people here and some not so wonderful. I’ve experienced happiness, love, heartache, hatred and many others while here. I can’t for my mental health keep pursuing dynamics as the more negative emotions have started to control me and I’m not fit to be in a dynamic with anyone. I’ve been putting off doing this since I’m stubborn and I still hoped that I might find someone worth it like I have in the past but it’s reached a breaking point. At times I remained here to read blogs and interact with people through blogs and would stop looking for subs to heal myself but I’d always be tempted to keep trying. I guess in a way I’m like a little kid wanting to play with a toy till it’s broken and I’m putting my foot down and telling myself no more. No more being on the cage saying I’m not looking while hoping someone will catch my eye. No more licking my wounds for a few days and saying it’s fixed when it isn’t. No more trying to look for something that I might or might not find in here and eventually running it because my heart isn’t in it. No more saying my depression isn’t that bad when I’m already at the edge of the cliff and the bottom is starting to look really nice.I will be deactivating my account in a few days to have the chance to say goodbye to the friends I’ve made here. And while this is a goodbye I hope it isn’t forever and I’ll come back after licking my wounds and actually healing myself instead of putting a bandaid.
I wish the very best to all the people here in their current and future dynamics. ☺️
And one last song to commemorate the name of my blog and the path I slowly took
