LuceeLu

Sweet Surrender

If there was any doubt about whether or not I was a submissive, it has been extinguished.

Your words alone make me wet and I want to be a good girl so badly just to receive your praise. I can hear your tone without hearing your voice and my core aches with need to do your bidding.

Join me on my journey to find HIM and my own sweet surrender.

Pour Out of Me

4 years ago. May 26, 2020 at 8:20 AM

My editor hates and loves this about me.

The words pour out of me like the tears that cascade down my cheeks.

It was just a tiny idea. A small pitch with a brief outline.

Not even two days later...and I sit here in the darkness kept company only by the words displayed on the lit screen of my laptop.

3 New Friends.
1 Blocked Dom. 18 Chapters identified and started. 172 pages of completed content.

If the words continue to pour out of me, this story will be done before my other book.

He’ll forgive me when he gets paid.

My eyes hurt and my body is exhausted from going through the motions. I’m fine. I’ll be fine. Someday I’ll believe that. Right now, I hate caring. I hate feeling. And I hate that I can’t force myself to hate you. I want to hate you.
I want to burn the house down and all the memories with it.

Until then, I’ll curl into a ball, slip into the darkness and accept the peaceful numb feeling passing out will bring.

Azzabackam(switch male){PawPawGirl} - Holy shit. 172 pages in two days? That's wildly impressive.

4 years ago

LuceeLu - It’s wildly obsessive and unhealthy but thank you. I’d prefer sleep. I can’t flipping sleep. I just want to sleep. I can’t sleep when the words pour out of me. I will stare at the ceiling mindlessly until I get my ass out of bed and write it all down.

Editing will determine if it’s all worthy content...but that’s why Tommy Boy makes the big bucks. 😆

4 years ago

Azzabackam(switch male){PawPawGirl} - I can definitely see that as well. I'm sorry you have to endure this.

4 years ago

sir james ladies(sub female){oh yes ple} - I was told by an author friend of sirs once it can be worse then drug addiction when the monkey is on your back good luck and hope it's a best seller.

4 years ago

LuceeLu - Thank you, I’ll let you know.

4 years ago

Cherry2000(sub female) - Needing to get the words out just right is sometimes the hardest part for me. I strain and agonize. Yet other times it's like things I didn't even know I knew pop out onto the page, like it was just waiting for me to pick up the pen.

Take care of yourself. Don't let it overwhelm.

4 years ago

Cello Master(dom male) - God bless you on your journey

4 years ago

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