My rants

I'm sick of the Rollercoaster.  (My anxiety plays a lot into this.)

I need someone constant in my life. If you are going to message me, please do it at least once a day. 

I have two blogs about constancy. 

https://behindthemistress.tumblr.com/post/164161081295/confession-79

https://behindthemistress.tumblr.com/post/163925821500/confession-67 

I'm getting sick of this guy not talking to me for three or four days at a time, even if you just leave me a message. I appreciate any way of communication. 

I will more likely be with a guy 85% into but communicates with me daily than a guy who is 100% into me but messages me once a week. 

Unless you have time to worship, spoil, and pamper your mistress, then do not seek one. They need lots of your time, for worship and training.

I want someone real who will communicate  with me several times a day, preferably in between their cooking and cleaning for me. 

I want daily foot  massages, worship from my beta cheerleader, and serving me as much as they can. 

 I want them to make me breakfast, lunch, and dinner and run my bath. 

Weekly nails done, toe nails, and fingers nails. 

If you are so busy with school, work, family, friends and other activies that your mistress has to be scheduled in like once a month, then you do not have time for a mistress.

A submissive's life should be scheduled around his work and his mistress. 

For those are taken, married, and/or with kids, I'm hope you are happy. However please avoid me!

I am not someone side show or secondary. 

I'm a mistress as in that control my submissive men and betas, not that I let you cheat on that in which you give your vows to. 

I do NOT and will not befriend a married man without be friends with their wife first. 

I will not be the man's secret. I'm an open book. 

I will not be the reason  a husband and wife divorce or break up. 

I am not a kid person.  I prefer cats.

If you are married, taken, or with kids, please leave me alone.

Ode to my subs

I expect of you to. . .

to be sexy

make me feel sexy

make me happy when I'm down

drive me

dine me

take me shopping

hold my bags

make me laugh

take me to your place (or a hotel room)

massage me

worship my body

let me play with your body

let me tease you

let me make you hardb

let me sit on your face while you lick me clean

let me tie up up

it is up to me to decide when you cum

all of this makes me happy

but can't you make me happy?

If you do make me happy I will. . .

spoil you

let you cum

I will make you mine!

do you really thing you can handle me?

This was posted on my collarspace first. . .

It seems whenever I see that is a guy is cute on here, he probably thinks I am the D.U.F.F. (Google it)

He does not want a girl that is his good friend who could watch games and give him head during commercials. 

He want a hot, thin, sexy girl who is a super model, but treats him like a sexy king, because she is in nyphyo too. She is a unicorn. 

I'm so sick of guys on here confessing that they do have a wife and kids. You gave her vows, you want sex, give her something. . . Go to a sex shop together, get some toys, condoms (as do you do not want other kids), and send the kids out. Role play, cuff yourself to the bed, and give her the power. Watch 50 shades of Grey and let her pounce you. 

I was cheated by my ex for not being a nurturing mother figure to him. I told him that I wasn't that but I am a controlling dominant. I like bondage, chastity, and complete control. I know I am a freak, but you have no idea how it feel to finally release once you had be denied. I'm sick of being so damn sweet and innocent. I need a connection before I give a submissive guy pleasure once he pleases me. I doubt you can handle me. 

With that said, I am real. (Not a fake, not a scammer: stop calling me such, because I rejected you. I have the right to be picky, and I will not settle!) I want a real connection. I want a submissive to get me. I want submissive to touch me, and make me feel like the sexy goddess they claim me to be. I will not understand or feel a connection after just chatting a few times. I am seeking friends with right trusting connection to a long term female led in real life relationship

I am NOT an extremely strict--Domme. I am a dominant yet sensual mistress who loves control.  I want a long term female led relationship with a submissive boyfriend. I am not looking for a FWB or playmate. I need more than that.
(However  I do have rules or strict guidlines like every dominant should.)

1. Communication is a demand. (I want a submissive boyfriend who wants give his control to me. I want them to use their free will to make their own decision for TPE.
Before any physical things happen, there will be discussions of fantasies and what both sides want, don't want, will do and won't do etc.)
 I need to have a honest, open connection with my submissive boyfriend. (If something is not right, I want my submissive boyfriend to speak up. I also believe in safe words. . . Yellow means slow down or something isn't right. Red means stop action completely and echo means we need to talk.)

2. The submissive boyfriend  must kneel in order to ask for any major requests. (Preferably in private.)

3. THE Submissive Boyfriend cannot look at other women lustfully unless they feel I would be interested. (I do not seek switch or dominant women, but I do look at the women's body in artful way.)

4.  I want to meet all of submissive boyfriend friends, especially female friends. (I will not tell them he is submissive and can be done causal. However I want to know if anyone is going to want to steal him or cause drama. I will be willing to show all of my friends as well.)

5. The submissive boyfriend must have a job. (I don't care if he goes to school while working part time to find something he loves. I just want time for myself and time where he is financially productive. I am NOT seeking someone to just clean the house. I like a balance of time together and our own time.)

6. The submissive boyfriend must be fit or trying to be come fit/active. I want this for at least health and energy reasons. (I want someone who encourages me and wants me to be more active as well. I think more time being active, better health, and more exciting sex.)

7. I want to have similar interests to do together.
My interests are . . .
Writing/reading
Board, rp, and card games (I like Wii sports as well)
Movies/tv/netflix  (cuddle time)
Cooking/baking
Indoor biking/going to gym
Swimming (pool only)
Shopping
Dinning out
Hanging out with family and friends
Mediation/relaxing (trying to)
Traveling
Chatting

8. The submissive boyfriend can call me the following names:  goddess, mistress, Rebekah, sexy, babe, hun, dear (Do NOT call me madam or ma'am, I am not that old.)
I, the mistress, can call the submissive boyfriend the following names: Babe, his name, sexy toy or boy toy, dear, hun etc

9. The submissive boyfriend must text me throughout the day. (Do NOT text while driving or while actually working. I will hate have him get into a car accident or get fired for a text.) He must be honest, I will not put up with liars.

10. Sex with the submissive boyfriend will probably only be 20% of the time (this is meaning actually touching the private parts, penis, ass, vagina etc. This NOT  count kissing, massages, foreplay of other parts, teasing or chastity etc.)
A. For every 3 to 5 of my orgasms, he gets 1.
B. I want him to read my blog and explore my body to find my turn on spots and things that turn me on.
C. I want to play and have sex more when I am happy.
D. I love gifts (romantic, practical, and sexy).
E. The sub wears a chastity belt or cock cage if he cannot control himself between sexual sessions.
F. I like romance.
G. Do not get fired for sending sexual texts at work, it will result in time time chastity with a chastity belt in which I have the key.
H. I like a mixture between romance and kinky and fun on my dates.
Just. I do like surprises.

I am NOT an extremely strict--Domme. I am a dominant yet sensual mistress who loves control.  I want a long term female led relationship with a submissive boyfriend. I am not looking for a FWB or playmate. I need more than that.
(However  I do have rules or strict guidlines like every dominant should.)

1. Communication is a demand. (I want a submissive boyfriend who wants give his control to me. I want them to use their free will to make their own decision for TPE.
Before any physical things happen, there will be discussions of fantasies and what both sides want, don't want, will do and won't do etc.)
 I need to have a honest, open connection with my submissive boyfriend. (If something is not right, I want my submissive boyfriend to speak up. I also believe in safe words. . . Yellow means slow down or something isn't right. Red means stop action completely and echo means we need to talk.)

2. The submissive boyfriend  must kneel in order to ask for any major requests. (Preferably in private.)

3. THE Submissive Boyfriend cannot look at other women lustfully unless they feel I would be interested. (I do not seek switch or dominant women, but I do look at the women's body in artful way.)

4.  I want to meet all of submissive boyfriend friends, especially female friends. (I will not tell them he is submissive and can be done causal. However I want to know if anyone is going to want to steal him or cause drama. I will be willing to show all of my friends as well.)

5. The submissive boyfriend must have a job. (I don't care if he goes to school while working part time to find something he loves. I just want time for myself and time where he is financially productive. I am NOT seeking someone to just clean the house. I like a balance of time together and our own time.)

6. The submissive boyfriend must be fit or trying to be come fit/active. I want this for at least health and energy reasons. (I want someone who encourages me and wants me to be more active as well. I think more time being active, better health, and more exciting sex.)

7. I want to have similar interests to do together.
My interests are . . .
Writing/reading
Board, rp, and card games (I like Wii sports as well)
Movies/tv/netflix  (cuddle time)
Cooking/baking
Indoor biking/going to gym
Swimming (pool only)
Shopping
Dinning out
Hanging out with family and friends
Mediation/relaxing (trying to)
Traveling
Chatting

8. The submissive boyfriend can call me the following names:  goddess, mistress, Rebekah, sexy, babe, hun, dear (Do NOT call me madam or ma'am, I am not that old.)
I, the mistress, can call the submissive boyfriend the following names: Babe, his name, sexy toy or boy toy, dear, hun etc

9. The submissive boyfriend must text me throughout the day. (Do NOT text while driving or while actually working. I will hate have him get into a car accident or get fired for a text.) He must be honest, I will not put up with liars.

10. Sex with the submissive boyfriend will probably only be 20% of the time (this is meaning actually touching the private parts, penis, ass, vagina etc. This NOT  count kissing, massages, foreplay of other parts, teasing or chastity etc.)
A. For every 3 to 5 of my orgasms, he gets 1.
B. I want him to read my blog and explore my body to find my turn on spots and things that turn me on.
C. I want to play and have sex more when I am happy.
D. I love gifts (romantic, practical, and sexy).
E. The sub wears a chastity belt or cock cage if he cannot control himself between sexual sessions.
F. I like romance.
G. Do not get fired for sending sexual texts at work, it will result in time time chastity with a chastity belt in which I have the key.
H. I like a mixture between romance and kinky and fun on my dates.
Just. I do like surprises. 

Deal breakers

• Cat Haters 
• Smokers
• Abusive tempers
• And biggest one liars 

I cannot handle liars and the Internet is full of them. 

Doms pretending to be a sub so they wrestle another dom for a power struggle. . . It's like a secret turn on. 

Catfishing pretending to be someone else. . . Fake pics, fake facts, why are you doing this?

Saying you're single when you have a girlfriend or wife and kids.  (I'M seeking a submissive boyfriend, I want your entire attention. I will not second rate or just a play toy.)

If you are any of those, please leave me alone. 

I live in America. However I am not rich, and I cannot host a submissive. I live with family. 

I am not seeking submissive men from other countries who will "work or marry" to get into my country. Please come in the country the propper way with paperwork and get a job. 

However if you just want a chat, then chat. 

Please, God please get him out of my head. 

Damn it is almost three months. 

He blocked me on the sites.

But he is in my head.

But he is in my dreams.

Why can't I move on?

Other guys want me, interested in me. . 

But my heart and brain are on him.

Grrrrrr 

He doesn't care.

Move on. 

I used to watch the game show called Baggage. Jerry Springer was the host. There was the main person, male or female which had a piece of extreme baggage. Then they get to see three or four of the wanted type of partner with their small, medium, and large baggage.
It made me think what is my baggage.

Small baggage: I'm very close to my family. I moved back in with them. (My ex didn't want me to work, so when he passed away, I had nothing. I try to help support my family and they help and support me.)

Medium baggage: I am seeking someone to inspire me and support my writing career.

Large baggage: I have health issues which encourages me to entrance more of a dominant life style. I am a dominant yet sensual mistress who loves control. I love chastity and other fetishes. I want a submissive boyfriend who wants me for who I am and supports me.

Surprising baggage: I do not want kids, and I will not date those with kids. I rather have 2 to 3 cats. I helped raise my brothers and was forced into an education major, this burnt me out. I want adult fun, writing my book, like running around the house naked or have dinner parties or traveling more.