I need to listen to my gut. It is saying . . . I need to focus on myself right now. I cannot give my future submissive boyfriend (who is into me as human, not just a dominant), the full dominant experience.
I do NOT like or enjoy chastity or ruin orgasms. I feel it's mean. I am more about controlled pleasure, NOT pain.
Currently, I have to be in a chastity because as I have explained before I have endometriosis and fibroid. These cause a very super-sensitive pelvis. For the last four plus years if I have an orgasm my body gets stiff and I have severe cramps for days. I cannot enjoy sex anymore. Where is the fairness in letting my submissive orgasm while I simply remained teased and flustered?
I am going to see different doctors for these issues this year. My goal is a hysterectomy as I do NOT want kids. I also want as little scar tissue down there as possible.
It’s very weird how since December, when I decide I’m not looking for anyone special, that everyone seems to pop out of the wood work. Last Thursday I got several guys that were interested in my dominance . . . not me. Last Friday, I got a story from a male friend and a stuffed unicorn from another. (I didn’t ask for either one, both were sweet gestures though.)
I am just asking for more readers and friends at this moment in my life . . . I can't deal with a submissive boyfriend right now. (Besides I’m sick of the guys who just want my dominance and NOT interested in me.)
NOTE: Please read my profile. I am very honest in who I am and what I want. If you are not what I want please simply move on.
