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Rose's Thorns.

A general pondering.
5 months ago. Mon 20 May 2019 11:10:37 PM IDT

im becoming more and more tired as time goes on. I don't think tired covers it, flat might be a better word anyway... Im tired of having to keep putting myself back together. Things happen in life that can stick with you, even when delt with. Im tired of having my head put in a blender every few years or at least that's what it feels like. 

Im good at being strong but the truth is its exhausting. It would be nice to not have to, to have the option. 

Im also tired of keeping my walls up, they are getting heavy; but they are there for good reasons. 

Im tired of not being respected as a single woman. Of the messages requesting kik or images or unwanted images being sent to me. 

im considering going back to vanilla, even though i know my identity as sub. 

the one thing that's stopping me is its often worse. 

(after posting this, im likely to get messages 😞)

 

MasterBrads painpet​(sub female){OWNED} - Oh I feel you. The one thing that stops me from going back is me knowing I have a submissive heart. I decided I'm not letting those people win who want to abuse my submission. Keep holding on I know it's hard. You are strong and amazing. If you need to rant I'm available. Hugs
5 months ago
rosethorn​(sub female) - I really appreciate that minx, that's what's stopped me going back too. Im sort of getting to the point i no longer care, which isn't good xxx
5 months ago
MasterBrads painpet​(sub female){OWNED} - Oh I understand. The being patient moving slow. Not getting anything but fakes is frustrating. I've wondered many times what about me. But I know this if you are a true submissive to your heart you won't feel right being away. I didn't and I'm new.
5 months ago
rosethorn​(sub female) - I know i will miss it, im needing a break. I also know its not the kind of break i could do with and i will miss it but i don't really know what else to do especially if im so tired my walls are getting heavy xx
5 months ago
MasterBrads painpet​(sub female){OWNED} - All I can tell you is doing what I'm doing. Working on me. But staying connected.
5 months ago
rosethorn​(sub female) - Xxx i hope its going well for you minx x
5 months ago
MasterBrads painpet​(sub female){OWNED} - Not all days. Today isn't a good day at all. But I'm trying really hard. If I didn't have you all around I'd be a basket case I think.
5 months ago
rosethorn​(sub female) - Then i hope tomorrow goes better xxx
5 months ago
MasterBrads painpet​(sub female){OWNED} - Thank you dear... I'm here if you nerd me.
5 months ago
Liz223​(sub female){Not lookin} - (((big bear hugs, you can't breathe type hugs))).....I completely understand and ask myself this constantly!!!! Keep your chin up beautiful!!! I'm here if you wanna talk I think we can relate ALOT!!!! Stay optimistic and busy!!! Even though as strong women "busy" is our middle name..... It takes its toll every now and then!!!! But you are STRONG....it's the patience part I have a problem with!
5 months ago
rosethorn​(sub female) - Thanks, i like being busy and im not at the moment its sort of driving me round the bend
5 months ago
Liz223​(sub female){Not lookin} - Me too!!!!.....like today I'm off work but I'm on my housewife bet minus the Valium
5 months ago
rosethorn​(sub female) - Haha, I carried a microwave home the other day.
5 months ago
Liz223​(sub female){Not lookin} - Nice!!!! I mobbed up to the store earlier....decided to walk because driving let me think to much!!!!!
5 months ago
rosethorn​(sub female) - Mobbed ... Haha. Yup.
5 months ago
Liz223​(sub female){Not lookin} - Hahaha yeah I was sweating!!!!! It was worth it though!!!......I've recently discovered how great a walk is when your frustrated and ready to beat everyone in sight
5 months ago
rosethorn​(sub female) - I really miss going kick boxing, i cant go and haven't been able to for a while but i miss being able to punch a bag after a bad day and thinking when sparing
5 months ago
Liz223​(sub female){Not lookin} - That's a great release!!!!! Hitting a punching bag!!!!
....I want to get back into belly dancing or zuumba!!!
5 months ago
rosethorn​(sub female) - It really was 😭
5 months ago
Liz223​(sub female){Not lookin} - Don't cry beautiful......the thing about being strong is you always find an outlet!!!!!
5 months ago
rosethorn​(sub female) - Maybe that's the problem
5 months ago
Liz223​(sub female){Not lookin} - It's a problem and a solution.....you just have to find d what works best for your situation beautiful!!!!!
5 months ago
rosethorn​(sub female) - I just lack any sort of energy
5 months ago
Liz223​(sub female){Not lookin} - Monster energy drinks do it for me!!!!
5 months ago
rosethorn​(sub female) - 🤮🤮🤮lol
5 months ago
Liz223​(sub female){Not lookin} - Hahahaha
5 months ago
HeWhoHasNoSWITCH​(switch male) - People forget they are dealing with a person on the other side of the computer. This case a lot of men forget that they are ladies on the other side who have minds and hearts. They may be more open about their sex life but they should still be treated as anyone else. Stimulate their mind before trying to stimulate their body.
5 months ago
rosethorn​(sub female) - I find there seems to be a disconnect between respect and sex, the two can go together and be rough but many people find that impossible
5 months ago
HeWhoHasNoSWITCH​(switch male) - 👎🏻
5 months ago
hisgoodbunny​(sub female){Darth} - Set messages to nobody. You can block so just premium can message or nobody. I have no other advice for you. Because I can not relate.
5 months ago

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