Is it also hard for other to get into the right headspace? (
2 weeks ago • 06/26/2020 11:39 am
BabyTgirl(sub female) • 06/26/2020 11:39 am
Hi! I'm not sure if there are many submissives that also deal with mental health issues on here but I wanted to create a safe space for us to chat, unload, and give advice to one another! (Dominants are welcome too!)
Well for starters I'll go first: As much as I know I want, and even need a D/s relationship, I am still beating with anxiety to fully open myself up. I'm not sure of anyone else can relate but sometimes thinking about giving someone that power can be very scary. And not to overshare to strangers, but I've dealt with sexual harassment, verbal and mental abuse throughout my childhood. So being vulnerable can be hard, just thinking about it gives me panic attacks sometimes. And while I'm working on improving myself, the ironic thing is I believe allowing someone to take control and guide me will help me significantly. Sadly, while I really want to get into that headspace, it's not something I'm used to. I'm the oldest of 3 kids with a single mother. So I had to take on a lot, including taking a lot of the hits from
a verbally abusive person in our lives. As well as taking on the pressure to take care of them and my mom, while trying to be the perfect role model. Because of all of this I was never taught really how to take care of myself. So it's a struggle dealing with depression, anxiety and insomnia.
And of course I don't want to burden someone with all my baggage. And that's part of the anxiety.
I guess the point of this all is, do any other submissive have a hard time pushing their trauma aside in order to get into the proper headspace? And if so fo you have any advice that may help me accept this part of myself more? Or how to move past the anxiety?
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