I honestly don't understand how so many people here are positive it just seems in my life my ability to connect with people especially sexually of any kind has always been sorta trash.
I tried to abandon my interest in BDSM I tried to ignore my actual preferences to be what I felt fit society better.
I haven't been sexually active in a pleasurable experience in years sure could I have sex with some random person thats not me though I get no pleasure from meaningless sex just like masturbating has lost interest with me as well.
When I self pleasure its like wow so alone again awesome.
I iust give up so I don't get why so many people in here don't believe it's over.
Look its ok Many people can live without sexual gratification does it suck yeah of course but it can be done.