This year my doctor's changed my hormones around. ( Who knew estrogen and progesterone play a vital roll in overall health)
In every metric I am healthier then last year. 🎉
Yet once everything was balanced my body went to places I never knew existed. I had always been an asexual, who would only have sex with someone to please them because I am loving. 🤖
However, with my hormones as they are now that's not the case anymore. 🫣
There are times when i'm near ovulation that I am in tears because I want to be penterated so badly it hurts both physically and emotionally. 😵💫💢
I had no idea a female body could desire being fucked and attended to so intensely before. Even crazier is that my body could become this way with some small tweaks to my medicine. 😲
Coming from someone who never really had these feelings before it's agonizingly intense.🥺
I am uncomfortable embracing this emergent aspect. I realize that dealing with my body as it should be is the only healthy path forward. 😇
But-
I got used to how I was, these changes make it difficult to cope. The old me is only a memory, there is a comfort in the familiar and a sense of identity that is now lost. I at times feel hopeless since my world inverted. 🙃
Questions?
Who am I? 🤔
What does tomorrow bring? ⛅
Will I adapt to the new normal? 🔮
I am anxious about my future, I hope that the people I end up interacting with will leave positive impressions. I have had enough trauma for 2 lifetimes. 💯
I changed more in the last year, then the previous 10. I can use some low drama fun experiences, is that too much to want from the universe. 🌠
Are you willing to explore and adventure with me - as I find bits of myself I never knew? 😳
Love the one and only,
Icegirl-❣️
