Physical manifestations surface from the war raging inside.
Headaches, sadness, unworthiness, uncontrollable emotions, stomach aches and overall zombie feeling.
Choose to end the war. Cause another pain, keep the war going and loose myself to the darkness.
I have no fight left not even for me, how can I be expected to fight for another.
Just as I sink a hand grabs me a friend she talks with me we figure out where I got lost
I slowly start to feel the burn again the want to be me. She encourages and helps and before I know it one has turned to 3
3 beautiful souls helping me fight my way back up.
Each bringing something different to the table but picking me up reminding me I am strong.
I don't know exactly how it happend or what dropped me but I crashed hard. It took me to that dark place and the demons tried to pull me under. These 3 wouldnt let it happen.
I've never seen people stand up and fight for another I've always done that no matter what it cost me always put others before me only to have them not acknowledge or see what I was doing. So today Mark's the end of the internal war. I have a super support system who reminds me to self care, be fierce, that I am stronger than I see and that ripping the band aid off is better than the slow hard fall.
My circle my bubble knows all and doesnt judge me for who I am but helps me grow and understand. So to my bubble thank you
5 years ago. September 4, 2019 at 3:39 AM