Just me

How can your heart belong to someone else even when you know it's not suppose to be,
How can your mind belong to someone who has matched to you perfectly
How can your soul feel so alone when you have those around you who are suppose to lift you up?
When did life get so confusing? How can one body feel so many different emotions. The heart tied to another because of a commitment teachings and a friendship, the ache of the same heart because there is no growth there anymore.
The soul that's lost because no one can get it out of the protected shell it's in, cant find a way to keep the demons away so it has the chance to shine. It drifts all alone looking for its other half. Even when the brain thinks its found the match the soul knows and sends the gut feeling of this is wrong..
Then there is the mind connecting being challenged spinning deeper and deeper. Needing more and more greedy little bastard.
Mentally I find people I connect with each unique and somehow the same, they miss the mark somewhere else. They see my heart and choose to hurt it, they see my soul but say its to guarded.
My heart is a jig saw puzzle at this point in my life...missing some pieces as I never fully get it back. Glued back together in other spots.
My brain is growing tired of trying to be what the other person needs always wanting to be the best version of me for them then somehow I disappoint them...
My soul poor sweet soul. The demons are slowly killing it it doesnt even know joy or love anymore. It tries to escape but has become weak.
The one will not live with out the others and then I become just a shell....