You stand off looking in the distance
I whisper behind you
You keep looking out searching
I stand next to you
Your squint your eyes to see further
I grab your hand
You search the horizon
"What are you looking for" I whisper
You raise your hand to cover your brow
I wait for your answer.
You continue to search in silence
I start to look as well
Moments of pondering what it is your looking for
Getting lost in the search I forget the moment
I stare out long and hard looking for what, I do not know
There are no answers there but I continue to look
You start to come back to the now
I stare harder at the horizon
You step away from me closer to the edge
I stand still and watch
You look out again and turn towards me
I wait and watch wondering when you will see me
You slowly raise your gaze to meet mine
I hold my breath
Your eyes look at me
I wonder do you see me
Are you here in the now
Do I need to watch you live in the future
Are you willing to step back to me
Has the desire of possibilities taken you from me
Something in me snaps and I see you
I meet your eyes and wonder do you see me
Are you willing to be here with me I think
If I take the leap will you go with me
Your gaze keeps its hold on me
I ask what it is you want
You turn your head back to look out into the nothing
I sigh and turn to walk back to the forrest to hide
You stay rooted where you are staring out.
My sadness turns to anger and I turn around
Your back is to me looking out again
I yell at you "if you wont see me I will make you"
You make no move
"Your looking for answers that cant be found
You want the solution instead of the moment
You tell me I deserve more
Your right I do
I deserve to be a part of it
I deserve to have you in the moment with me
I deserve to know your feelings
I deserve to be believed when I say I'm happy
I deserve to not feel bad when a situation scares me
I deserve to be able to love you and live my part of us how I want.
You deserve all of me not something I hold back
You deserve to have short term goals with me
You deserve to dream a little
You deserve happiness
You deserve to desire and want
You deserve someone willing to give you everything
I deserve all of you not just a little bit of you. "
You remain with your back to me
Tears start to fall as I say
"I know what I'm getting into
I know what I have to offer
If you dont want what I am willing to give
You have to say
I dont need anything more than you
I want to cross the bridges we will come to
Together hand in hand
I dont want you to try and figure it out
I dont want to cause you stress
I can turn and walk back behind my wall of trees where no one sees me...."
Your body twitches, you have heard me
I take a deep breath
I run to the cliff and jump
I have faith in us I know I wont fall
Will you see me and jump
Or are you going to keep looking so far out.