My brain has stopped thinking
Now it just hurts
My shoulders dont carry the burden
They have fallen in pain
My heart doesnt race with panic
It pounds with exhaustion
My eyes burn not from tears
But from the lack of sleep
My physical manifestations
My be slowing me down
The mental manifestations
Are the ones that scare me
The darkness has faded slightly
I see I'm standing alone
The world goes on around me
Each in their own bubble
Today I will rest recover
Tomorrow is another day for the warrior
Today is about me and my bubble
Hugging the ones I can
Missing the ones I cant
I will cuddle and snuggle to recharge
I will giggle laugh and just be mom
I will quiet their fears
That have formed from the media
Reassure and guide them
Somewhere building us all back up
To fight the battle to come.
My little ones are my world, as many of you know. Last night we were playing uno and questions started to fly. All about this pandemic. We dont realize the effect this has on our children. They hear bits and pieces then talk to their friends via text or facetime and poof the world is ending. So while today is my only day off I am still doing damage control and calming fears.
My children will learn not to panic and to take something like this with compassion. Compassion for the elderly who seem to be hit the hardest, compassion for the neighbor who cant get supplies because greedy people have taken them all. Compassion for the people working long hours to make sure we have what we need, compassion for those sick and those dying, and most importantly love for eachother.
I had someone offer to help if I needed becasue they know I'm front line staff. We cant get to the markets because of the hours we work. By the time I get there everything is gone. So he remembered this and offered to help. Those are the stories i want my kids to know, the ones where one human remembered they have a heart and reached out to help a fellow human.
Take the time to spread a smile or some hope. Please stop with the panic and chaos It doesn't do you or anyone around you any good. Reach out to those who you know may need an extra hand, offer some help. Call eachother because some people havent heard another's voice in days. Stand strong against this but remember to support those around you too.
** side note for healthcare workers am I the only one finding humor in the face masks? We cant get extra in the facility and yet they are EVERYWHERE on the street.