For the past.couple of days, there were baby items/clothing in the lobby
I posted the swing/bouncer in the local donation group. So I set those aside until I receive a response (I didn't want the superintendent to throw them out).
Today, I saw the bag.of clothing strewn all over the place, it drove me nuts. I knew it was clothing for a baby boy. As I was, putting everything back in the bag I saw two cute.little onesies (first stab) then I started to look through all the clothing. Why? I don't know. Maybe to see how much I have healed from my losses. I came across this tie dyed onesie for a girl, then it fucking hit me, i quickly pushed down the grief resurfacing.
Even as I write this, i had to stop and get a handle of the tears, the grief, anger, resentment, that I keep running away from. I now realize I really haven't grieved, I sucked it.up and kept moving forward. Today is the day God needed to.let me know that I have to stop running. FUCK!!!! 😭😭😭😭😭
