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Fetishist's Journey and the new Drone.

Gay male 49, and been with my man for 26 years currently.
I have autism, am heavily into Gear (clothing) fetishes, BDSM, sex and orgasms.
My sex and gear addictions led me to cheat on my man many times over the years and I have had therapy which helped me straighten things out in my head.
My husband is now disabled and terminally ill, and has allowed me to indulge my needs and desires as long as I don’t cheat again.
I am converting our spare room into my own BDSM playroom which will be fully kitted out. I already have the gear, sling, chains, etc... and I have built a bondage style bed frame with tie-downs, and will make it a cage underneath.
My new 'drone' has arrived and taken up it's role to satisfy my sexual and fetish needs.
My 'drone' will always be fully clothed with appropriate accessories.
It's 'outfits' will include: bike leathers, flight suits/overalls, rubber gimp/pup outfits, motocross armoured gear, scally/chav (shiny trakkies), skinhead (bleachers and bomber jacket) , lycra running/cycling gear, and many more.
Accessories include (where appropriate), footwear, gloves, hats, harnesses, gags, hoods, cuffs, plugs, helmets, etc.....
3 years ago. March 9, 2021 at 8:42 PM

Well the beams are all in place now and a lot of the anchors are fitted up already.  I have places for 27 and 17 fitted so far.  They”re rated at 80kg and each have two 100mm screws through the beams and up into the joists in the ceiling above.  This same method was tried and tested in our main bedroom and the sling was fine there.

My next job is to place the shower tray on a short plinth to allow for the drain to slope. The bathroom is next door and it’s about to be ripped out and replaced, so my en-suite shower will be plumbed in at the same time as that gets done.

I had a though today and I’ll need a fridge.  If I need a drink or snack, I don’t want to have to traipse downstairs to the kitchen in whatever gear I’m in at the time, so I’ll buy a small fridge to keep some drinks and snacks in.

currently the floor is bare boards with no deafening between them and the ceiling below (our dining room) so every footstep can be heard in the lounge.

I’m going to floor the room with a black rubber matting that comes on a roll and is used in workshops and garages and use it like a wet floor surface, gluing it in place with black silicone sealant and bringing the edges up to the top of the skirting boards and securing with black silicone and a staple gun.  I’m not after a full wet room, but I need the floor to handle spillages of lube and body fluids.

I’ll get some photos in daylight and post an update in a few days.

3 years ago. March 8, 2021 at 10:08 AM

I have finished the ceiling and walls painting now.  It's all a nice deep red colour.

I have cut the beams for the ceiling and stained them black.  Tonight's job is to get them screwed into place and start fitting the load-bearing eye plates.  Once that's done, I can hang my sling - I cant wait to sleep in it !

I have changed the 5-lamp brass chandelier that was in the room for a plain round LED lamp to give a better overall light.

I have decided to keep the current white wardrobes (to keep the peace with my man), but have moved them to a different side of the room, screwed then together and fixed them to the wall. This left just enough space in the corner for a shelving unit that was already there.

The rest of the other plain wall will get twin-slot shelving fitted.

When the ceiling is complete, I will get the shower tray fitted into the corner and arrange for the materials to seal the floor.

I'm planning to use the 3mm thick black rubber garage flooring and silicone it down to the floor and up the skirting boards around the edges.

Once I have tidied up I will post photos of the progress.

 

3 years ago. March 2, 2021 at 8:18 AM

My new playroom is progressing albeit slowly.  I have started the first coat of maroon paint over the dark blue undercoat. Once the second coat is complete it should be a nice and even colour all through.

The ceiling is getting wooden beams (stained black) screwed up along the joists and will be fitted with anchor points (eye plates) every foot or so along each one to give me as many sling and suspension options as I want around the room.

I have also decided on which sex doll I want to get (start with.......)

Spartanlover.com do a doll called Chase.  He's 5'3", fully articulated metal skeleton and TPE skin.  The anal and oral cavities are tight, ribbed and 8" deep.  He weighs in at 99lb (7st) so he is heavy but I wouldn't want a light doll, and he will probably spend most of his time in my sling anyway.

He is able to stand on his own, fully poseable and I will always have him fully dressed in gear that activates my fetish triggers, even during use.

I will get two penises with him.  A 7.5" hard and a 4" flaccid.

Cost is just under $2000.

3 years ago. March 1, 2021 at 2:45 PM

I've been trying to explain my fetishes to my husband. (Believe me, there's LOADS of them)

He's not stupid and worked in the sex industry for years as a Transvestite Dominatrix (not my thing) whipping and humiliating paying 'guests' and was very popular.

He can't get his head around my fetishes no matter how much I try to explain that it's all to do with objects, materials, etc.., not people.

I can't help it when I see a tight leather-clad biker (race leathers, not BLUF) driving past or a group of scallies in their shiny hooded trakkies or a jogger/cyclist in shiny tight lycra, and it makes my dick get hard - It's not the person, it's the gear they're in.

I do watch a lot of porn, mostly to feed my fetish needs, and I have shown him various videos.  I showed him one of a guy in full motocross gear wallowing in a pool filled with slime/lube all on his own - he couldn't understand what someone would get out of that.   I do understand - only too well.

It's like the 'sex' things he can get his head around, but the solo 'play' things other than a wank he can't.  I've been using masturbators for years along with lubed leather gloves and he never had an issue with that, although I was ALWAYS fully geared up at the time.

I can't do sex without some fetish trigger being involved.

Sweat is another of my fetishes, though I don't like to be too hot so it's a delicate balance to stay comfortable. He knows I love hi-viz workie gear (yellow or orange, but not mixed) and I occasionally used to layer up, lube up and play for hours building up a sweat inside the suit - all done lying down, and when I stood up, litres of sweat would run down inside the suit and fill up my boots (matching wellies).  He doesn't get that one either.

I love sleeping in gear (usually layered trakkies, with all the trimmings down to trainers, baseball cap and gloves), and I'm doing this every night now.  This, he doesn't seem to have a problem with.

Last night I was about to go in the bath - (naked for a wash as opposed to a play in gear) and he came up behind me with a bucket of water, poured it over my head and left.  I just burst out laughing. When I was finished, I told him his mistake - He should have done it when I was dressed, not naked.

I am sure he will (eventually) accept all my fetishes and just let me get on with them as and when I desire, but for now, he is more than a little confused with the whole lot.

What will he make of it when I retire to my new playroom and spend hours playing with my life-size male sex doll ?? 

It won't be long before I find out................

3 years ago. February 28, 2021 at 4:09 PM

I kind of know what I want in my new bed, and I plan to build it myself from scratch.

I’m still trying to decide on the width - I want it like a padded bench similar to a massage table, but on braking castors so it can be moved about.  Storage space underneath for ancillaries and lots of eye plates for restraints to be attached.

I’ll always be fully dressed so the padding must be durable (think: wearing heavy motocross boots) and wipeable (for when I release my bladder).
I also need to be able to share it with my new sex toy, and he’ll be taller but slimmer than me, so maybe a drop-leaf at each side that will widen the top by so much each when deployed. Not quite sure yet.
I don’t want him falling on the floor and getting damaged.

I was thinking of making the bed 180cm long and 70 wide with the drop leaf of 20cm each would be sufficient.

I’ll decide what height once I’ve decided the other dimensions.


Any comments and suggestions will be appreciated.

3 years ago. February 28, 2021 at 12:30 PM

Okay so my spare room at home is about 3.2 x 3.2m.  Decent size for a playroom.

My attic hatch is also in this room and I fitted a drop down wooden ladder for easy access to my ‘collection’.

As my interests include the use of slings and suspension, I have marked out the ceiling joists with screws, and once the room is painted, i will fit wooden beams along each one,

For this, I have rough sawn timber (47x47mm) and black fence stain. So I will fit a stained length across the ceiling and screw it up into the joists. Where the screws go, I will fit eye-plates rated to 100kg each with two 100mm screws, spaced every 50cm along all the beams.

Colour lour scheme will be mainly deep red and black.  The walls and ceiling are papered and painted in light colours, so I am currently giving the entire room a coat of dark blue emulsion to bring the shade right down and I plan 2 coats of a red paint, like a dark maroon colour on top.

Lighting in the playroom will be RGB rope lights.

In the room, there is currently a nice set of vintage wardrobes in white with mirrored doors.  Nice for a bedroom, but not what I want in my playroom.  This is a sticking point for my husband as he still doesn’t understand the fetish needs for a proper playroom and says I should keep them in there.  I could paint them black, but I had planned open rails and shelves so everything was on show.   We’ll get back to that.

For the floor, I plan a large shower in the corner that backs on to the bathroom, and a sealed rubber matting glued down to plywood over the floor boards.

I can get this checker plate thick rubber matting on a roll. It’s for garage floors.  I’ll fit that once the shower tray is in and seal it up with black silicone sealant.  I’ll bring the rubber up the skirting boards all round the room too because there will be many liquid spillages during my play and I don’t want any fluids leaking through to the lounge below.

3 years ago. February 28, 2021 at 12:06 PM

New journey to indulge my needs, desires and fantasies.

I have always been into lots of fetishes and kinks.

I have a HUGE gear collection from bike leathers and motocross armour, combats and army equipment, tracksuits (scally gear) footy kit, rubber, pvc, nylon, hi-viz, bomber jackets, shiny jackets, ski suits, wetsuits, and more than I could list.

My attic is converted to house my collection and has over 1000 items on hangers plus helmets, boots, gloves, and all accessories necessary to play in FULL GEAR.  I don’t like bare skin showing.  My man always found it strange, but it’s a fetish.
I love sex in full gear masturbating in gear, bath or shower in gear and sleeping in gear.
I like multiple orgasms, milking, fisting, piss, snogging, snowballing and so much more.

since my travel down this new path started, about a week ago, I have slept fully clothed every night.

last night I kitted up in Black trackies (Lycra running tights and top under down jacket and trousers under thin waterproof trousers and jacket, then topped with an Adidas chile hooded gilet. Boxing boots and baseball cap on, all hoods up in order and then black leather unlined bike gloves on).  I filled the bath with warm j-lube, poppers at hand and I spent a happy hour playing in lube.  I think I had 3 orgasms during the session.

My man has accepted that I need to satisfy my desires but doesn’t want to watch or see what I’m doing.

I Do have issues expressing my feelings due to my autism. I accept facts readily and move on without dwelling on the past.

My plan now is to buy myself a life-size male sex doll - the type with articulated metal skeletons, proper weight, standable, dressable, fully positionable, and most of all: fuckable.