I feel deep appreciation for:
1. Teal helping a woman that actually spoke directly to me- an incredible self rejecting pattern from childhood, sad, but super empowering to understand and know what to do. And give empathy to me and why I am like this. It’s understandable I would be given there was never a YES to me (feel)
2. my breakthrough in my isha mtg yesterday - not needing to spout my problems, I had released many tears naturally before the mtg and could then GIVE- this feels very exciting! I would like to do the 6mo and become a facilitator one day!
3. being a match to self loving music- feeling Shiva invocation (below) in my bones. Allowing love IN
4. my time for a lovely bath before my zoom session w my daddy
5. myself helping my daughter find a life that feels good to her, as I wish was done for me, even tho it will be challenging for me to have very little alone time and I’m a bit nervous!
6. The Isha system and even Victoria who hurt me because she led me there and I probably wouldn’t have chosen it myself without someone just thrusting it upon me
7. MY DADDY- ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
8. reaching out to my ex husband yesterday just to say hey, I see I really caused you pain and I’m so sorry, when I could really feel and see that:( Telling him he did not deserve it, and that he deserves everything good. God please give him a good woman and connection with himself and his passion in whatever way is right for HIM
9. supporting my son in seeing the male therapist that HE likes (he is surrounded by women poor dear) and appreciating how he said it went great, that he scheduled it himself, and drove both ways omg I can’t believe my boy is driving me! Very impressed by him!!!
10. standing up to his gf lol (she is a powerhouse!) so that he could get some alone time. Being willing to be the fall guy for my kids
11. knowing what I like (the isha system, teal, and a certain bdsm dynamic) and making friends there, realizing I really do fit there
12. exploring here, learning as I go
13. having love to give, feeling my energy come out from my heart into the world once I have allowed it in for myself
14. being safe to open, isha facilitators giving me that super safe space, how my feelings were not too big for them, the realization that I’m actually normal and there is nothing wrong with me
15. What my physical issues are showing and teaching me, the understanding that the pain is there for a reason and it’s is not against me, its actually trying to protect me. Because look what I do when I feel well- I take risks!!!
16. my KIDS- I understand my daughter better but I’m so grateful for my son and what he is teaching me. So cool to see the male perspective from my view as a mother. Makes me try harder. Makes me understand. My mom didn’t teach me
17. BLANK (mom lol- not ready yet, but I can tell things are flowing in this direction
