It was amazing. It was everything I could ask for. Now I want more. I was allowed to help out two AMAZING FemDoms with their party. I have always considered myself a Service Submissive. I am built or have the mindset of helping others. That is my life inside and out of the scene or lifestyle.
Even though I mostly helped out by scheduling times on two pieces of equipment I was also checked on to make sure I was having a good time and was ok. You see I get intimidated with associating with Females of power or most anyone in power until I get real comfortable with them. As I watched I felt the ache of wanting to feel the strikes on my body. I wanted to feel the sting, but I didn't know if I ever would. But I was also content at the time to just live it in my mind as I watched, but the ache was there.
Then I had an interesting encounter with a Goddess and Her submissive who talked to me and was willing to let me experience what it felt like. When my duties were done for the time I took my place on the cross. The Goddess was caring and started off slow helping me go through the process. I felt the strikes, the blows and I was in heaven. I went into my zone, so content, but so alive. I took me back to when I first time I learned I enjoyed spanking and impact play. But it was so much more. Even though the session was long and the Goddess wanted to get to Her submissive I was so grateful for be using me. As I sat and watched more, I was in my happy place, and I still am almost a day later. I feel so good I feel so happy.
I went about the rest of the night helping out feeling excited and content. But my mind swirling about the next time, the next event. The is so much for me to learn and experience. I have gotten a taste and now I would like more. But I know I can't get into a frenzy and just jump in head first. I need to be controlled. I need to be safe. I just need to take my time. The time will come, and their is so much for me to learn.
Thank you to everyone that has gotten me to this point. I am at your humble service and devotion.