I think I have to start with telling that I have a really bad anxiety and a mild depression and sometimes it’s really tough to deal with it. And I never had a relationship never had a boyfriend. Never had sex, just foreplay one time so yeah that’s me. It’s really embarrassing and miserable but I think someone here can understand me in some way and maybe someone will make fun of me and it’s okay, I understand that, I mean, 25 years old.
Anyway, I like older man and I think that’s okay because I want someone who can take cares of me and guide and not a childish boy you know.
I was talking to a man and he was nice with me I think, maybe to concentrate on sexual thing (nothing wrong with that) and then he told me I want to come in your city. And I told him about my anxiety.. we talked more and then he booked here and after a few hours after telling me I freaked out and told him to cancel because I wasn’t ready and I was sorry. And I’m still sorry because I feel guilty for being like this.
He answered like : “Of course I stop here. At some point virtual orgasms have to give way to reality. Always available to chat and, if you need some bdsm advice, you can count on me. But you will understand that I will turn my attention to other people in time.“
I cried.
