How can a man can define himself a dom or training dom at 25?
I don’t want to offend anyone of course but for me it’s just weird to think about it. It’s strange that I see a dom in a man? A grown up man.
How can you teach me or guide me at 25?
So in most of the book I read they talked about “subspace” I meanI think I understand what that’s mean but I would like to know if it’s real and how is it if you can explain in some way.. Oh and you can have only through pain? Or not?
Weird question for a virgin. Lol.
I think I have to start with telling that I have a really bad anxiety and a mild depression and sometimes it’s really tough to deal with it. And I never had a relationship never had a boyfriend. Never had sex, just foreplay one time so yeah that’s me. It’s really embarrassing and miserable but I think someone here can understand me in some way and maybe someone will make fun of me and it’s okay, I understand that, I mean, 25 years old.
Anyway, I like older man and I think that’s okay because I want someone who can take cares of me and guide and not a childish boy you know.
I was talking to a man and he was nice with me I think, maybe to concentrate on sexual thing (nothing wrong with that) and then he told me I want to come in your city. And I told him about my anxiety.. we talked more and then he booked here and after a few hours after telling me I freaked out and told him to cancel because I wasn’t ready and I was sorry. And I’m still sorry because I feel guilty for being like this.
He answered like : “Of course I stop here. At some point virtual orgasms have to give way to reality. Always available to chat and, if you need some bdsm advice, you can count on me. But you will understand that I will turn my attention to other people in time.“
I cried.
I was reading a naughty book like always and in those books there is usually “a club” a Bdsm club…And I was asking myself if those clubs are real I mean they exist? I’m sure here in Italy there aren’t lol or maybe yes but not real one and maybe one/two of them.
There are those club in your city? You ever tried? How is it?
I wish I could try…Well I’m sure I will be just watching because I’m not brave enough lol but I just wish that
Hello everyone,
I was just thinking earlier while reading a book (a naughty one lol) that my thoughts are confusing even for me..
I mean, I know this lifestyle is not like in the books or at least I can recognise the fake books..And maybe sometimes I make mistakes because I never did anything with someone so.. But my mind is like “Oh god I want to rest my head on “his” thighs while I’m kneeling. I don’t want to make decision, I want praises and to be comforted every day..” And then is like “I will never do something I don’t want to because “he” ordered me to do it! (Stubborn as hell, yes).
So what I want?
I know I can’t say nothing before try but I’m confusing myself
A while ago a men text me here and we start talking and he was very nice but he wasn’t present I mean he told he work a lot and I respect that but 4 text in the whole day? I want more! (I’m a needy person, yep).
anyway, I asked for a picture of him because he told me he was relaxing so I know he wasn’t working and he sent me the same one he sent me at the beginning…So I pouted lol and asked for real picture and not the same one..He got angry and told me I was being disrespectful (was I?) and that he never pressure me for pictures and that we will talk another time..not happened yet… I think he’s not who he says he is..It’s possible?
I mean I didn’t share pictures with him but I was starting to trust (real difficult for me), I talking about my issues, insecurities and my thoughts so I felt bad.. I’am too much? I mean, I’am exasperating things? Or I’m just sensitive?
Hello everyone, I know here I can be myself sooo…
I was watching this porn video (I must admit I have a passion for edging. Gay(watch this alot), lesbian, etero. I just love it) of this mistress edging his sub for his release and I understood that he was “free-orgasm” for so much long. I was fascinating…BUT the question is…I was fascinated by the control or just the act? I mean I’m surely not a mistress even if I love it but I need a strong man (maybe a switch? I don’t know!) And I love when In those videos of edging the one in charge praise the other one while doing “mean” things…I am strange? It is a contradiction, isn’t it?
like always sorry for my English and wish a good day to everyone!
Last night I was thinking…I know I know I should have sleep but when my mind starts spinning it’s hard to shut it off.
So..I was thinking in the past and even now I always think, what if I had an accident? Like a car accident or something like this and I will be in the hospital.. right? “They” will cry for me? They will take care of me? They will be worried about me?
Sometimes I wish about that accident just to have attentions but (I don’t know how to say this in English) attentions like care because I hate other type of attention on me…
I know it’s sound crazy… maybe it is.
Someone knows why I have this type of thoughts?
Why it’s so hard for me to find what I want?
I have a lot of issues and I know it but I keep reading of people that find their match..what about me?
I know here where I live is not that easy and that boys and men don’t look at me because of my body. You would think..what about online? Well, I tried but my shame about my body is so strong that I can’t fully let go.
I just want someone who could take care of me, guide me, help me.
Someone ever feel like this?
sorry for my English again lol.
Wish a good day to everyone 😊
From childhood’s hour I have not been
As others were—I have not seen
As others saw—I could not bring
My passions from a common spring—
From the same source I have not taken
My sorrow—I could not awaken
My heart to joy at the same tone—
And all I lov’d—I lov’d alone
Edgar Allan Poe, ‘Alone’.