Submissive chris

The “me Too” movement infiltrated our kink party in rainy Los Angeles last night. We are an older group and the Women decided that it would be fun to punish the men for their terrible treatment of Women. 
 
It was really symbolic as all of the men lined in a row, naked. Everyone had a hard on except me. Whips were passed around to the five Ladies  present and the Women rotated from man to man, whipping his cock.  It was 2 cock whippings per rotation so each cock was whipped 10  times which seemed to bring pleasure to the Woman although we men were in pain.
 
My cock grew very hard after the first time it was whipped and stayed hard until it was over. The men’s reaction was mixed but i found having my cock whipped very exciting. i may have to explore this a little further because someone whipping my cock excites me.
 
slave chris

For me, being a worthless submissive is having a constant inner feeling of inferiority i must try to mask in order to function in the real world. Inside, i always feel helpless, worthless, vulnerable, weak willed and obedient.
 
i dare not show my submission openly because everyone, Women and men would walk over me.  i want to be walked over by anyone but i have to live in a real world where advertising my submission would make life impossible.
 
Thankfully, there are a very few people, Women and men to whom i can reveal my submissive secret. These few take real pleasure in using me, abusing me, insulting me, humiliating me, degrading me as I really deserve and need.  For now, at least, that is enough.

Across the crowded lunch room i saw Her and She saw me, stared at me waiting to see what i would do. i pretended to drop something  on the ground, got down on my knees and, kneeling looked across the crowded room at Her. She gave me a look of contempt and walked off.  i know nothing about Her but she knows everything about me.
 
slave chris

A very long time ago, i was almost 20 years old and was a confirmed totally promiscuous gay faggot bottom and it worried me.
 
Other young men had girlfriends, were settling down and i was sucking or getting fucked by 3 to 5 men every day and I was hot for more men.
 
A beautiful tall muscled man i was blowing regularly, suggested that i try sex with a woman to see if i liked it. If i did, it could change my entire life. He had the phone number of a Lady who turned tricks and arranged a meeting at her apartment.
 
i liked her immediately because she was much older than me (i adore older women- even now) a little over weight and very feminine in demeanor.  After explaining my situation, and giving her money, she invited me into her bedroom where i took off my clothes.
 
“Oh, my,” she exclaimed, “you are all shaved and smooth. No pubic hair, no arm pit hair, smooth legs – you are as smooth as a girl.”
 
i explained that i like being feminine to men and shaving my body makes me feel feminine.
 
She invited me onto her bed, where she slipped out of her robe and took out a condom for me to put on before i fucked her.
 
“Would you like a half and half?  I’ll suck your cock and then you can fuck me.”
 
She took hold of my cock and worked it before putting it in her mouth. She was not as good a cocksucker as i am but it felt good and my cock grew.  Then she slipped the condom onto my cock and lay back so i could mount her and slip my cock into her pussy.
 
My cock went totally limp.
 
“Come on, baby I need to be fucked, put it in.”
 
i couldn’t get it hard. i played with it and it grew bigger but the moment i started to fuck her, my poor cock shriveled up.  It was embarrassing.
 
“You are too queer,” she whispered, “a lot of guys fuck me and not one has gone soft like

you.  Want to play with my pussy? Maybe it will get you hot”
 
She kind of slipped down and spread her legs and i got on the floor to get a good look. I loved looking at it. i was so active with men i hadn’t been with women. i suddenly realized that i wished I had a pussy like her pussy men could fuck instead of just my ass.
 
“Your pussy is so lovely, “ i whispered,” can I kiss it?”
 
“Oh, no, you don’t want to kiss it. I haven’t washed it and there have been five cocks fucking me so far today.”
 
“Please let me kiss it. I don’t care how dirty it is or how many men have fucked you. i need to taste it to smell it, please!!!”
 
It was wonderful! i was rubbing my face into and licking a pussy that had been fucked five times that day. i was licking where five cocks had been –where five cocks had cum inside her. i stuck my tongue up inside her where the cocks had been and licked.
 
It was so good to be there licking and smelling a pussy!. i wished i had a pussy instead of a cock. i wished i was female so more men would want to have sex with me.
 
Her attitude suddenly changed.
 
“You like that? You like licking where the men have fucked me? Want me to sit on your face?
 
Of course I did.
 
“Wait –I got to piss, baby.”
 
“Really?  i – i (i was afraid to ask) i, i could i watch you piss?
 
“You like that? You want to watch the piss come out of my pussy”
 
“Yes – please”

“Come into the bathroom, sissy. You like watching women piss? Do you watch men piss?”
 
“Yes, I do. i like to hang around men’s rooms. i like to watch men take out their cocks to pee.  i suck a lot of cocks in the men’s room. Sometimes i drink men’s piss.”
 
“Oh, my god, you are suck a fucking faggot pig. No wonder you can’t get  hardon for a real Woman. Here, let me sit on the toilet and you can watch. Why don’t you kiss my toilet seat first. You know you want to you queer.”
 
i loved it! She let me lick her toilet seat. i rubbed my face against this intimate object – her personal space – her personal female space. Then i looked down into her toilet. There was a used condom floating there.
 
“Is that a condom, i asked.”
 
“Yes, baby, from the last guy who fucked me. You want it? It’s filled with his cum. Take it out of the toilet if you want. I guess I forgot to flush.  Come on pig, put your face in the toilet and grab the condom with your fuckin teeth.”
 
my face was in the toilet water and I grabbed the condom with my teeth. i was so hot. A fresh condom! On the outside were her pussy juices to taste  – on the inside a man’s fresh cum. i put it aside for the moment because she really needed to piss.
 
She sat down on the toilet and i crawled in front of her and placed my chin on her toilet seat. She leaned back a little so I could watch her piss. Then she rose a little up of the toilet and i put my mouth at her pussy. She reached behind my head with her hand and forced my mouth to her pussy, tight and she pissed right into my mouth. 
 
She would pause pissing while i swallowed and then she began pissing again. i had never done this before and i was thrilled…i felt as if my mouth was her personal toilet.
 
“Tell you what, freak ” she whispered, “you suck on that dirty condom and I’ll jack you off. OK?”
 
i lay down on the cold bathroom floor and she knelt beside me. Suddenly she slapped my cock hard.  “It hurts,” i whimpered.
 

“Of course it hurts, you fuck.  I’m gonna hit your balls, fuck face.”
 
The pain was somehow exciting.
 
i put the used condom into my mouth and bite down on it, puncturing the rubber and I could taste the cum dribbling into my mouth.
 
“That is soo dirty, “ she whisperered, “you are such a fucking freak.”
 
Suddenly, she started jacking me off harder and harder.  Then she started slapping my cock, gently at first and then harder.
 
“You like that, freak?”
 
i was breathless, “yes, please, hurt it, hurt my cock, hurt me, please hurt me.”
 
Something about sucking a strange mans cum out of a used condom and having my cock slapped harder and harder by a Woman made me totally loose it and i came –shooting a huge load over everything.
 
“Lick it all up, baby, lick my fingers clean.”
 
i licked up every drop of my load off her fingers, off the floor, off my fingers, every drop.
 
You are a fucking wimp girlyman freak, arn’t you?
 
“Yes, yes I am.”
 
“you are about the lowest piece of scum I have ever met.”
 
She slapped my face.
 
“Get out of here. You got my dried piss all over your fuckin body and cum in your mouth. Put your clothes on i want you to leave here smelling like the toilet you are.’
 
i put my clothes on over my very smelly body. She started to laugh.
 
“Funny- you come here to be a man and you learned that you aren’t a man. You are not a man are you?”

“No..no I guess not.”
 
“But you are a real freak, you know that?  People can push you around and you love it. People can humiliate and degrade you and you just love it.  Come see me again and maybe I can push you.”
 
“What do you mean push”
 
“Take you down to the next level, freak. Take you down and down into the gutter, into the darkness. There are people who just love playing with freaks like you. There are fun parties where people can really get you to do things, nasty things to publically humiliate you. But you got to be obedient and follow orders. See?  Call me if you want me to train you.”
 
After I left, i sat in the car breathless for a while thinking over what i had just gone through. She had opened a door for me.  Now I had to find out if I wanted to go through the door and explore the other side.

i adore the way Women take advantage of me and yet i am ashamed of how disgusting I can be and how worthless i really am. This is my confession.
 
i was to meet Mistress Diane in a little public park we have been using from time to time.  There is a bench way back almost out of sight, facing bushes and not far from the public restrooms. After the lunch crowd and before the after school activities the area is deserted.  i sat on the ground in front of the bench and waited for Mistress.
 
i love being humiliated by Women and so, sitting on the ground gave me a feeling of inferiority staring at the ground where her precious feet might be, imagining the look of contempt on Her beautiful face.  The last time we met like this, She spat on my face in disgust for me. i trembled at the memory.
 
And then She was there – or rather THEY were there. She had brought a Woman friend with her to witness my humiliation.  THEY sat on the bench with me on the ground and Mistress told her friend how disgusting i was and as Mistress spoke Her friend looked at me with contempt too.
 
i took out my money, and counted out Her tribute  in $20.00 bills one after another to $200.00, every penny i could afford. Mistress reached into Her handbag and removed a rolled up used sanitary napkin wrapped in toilet paper. She handed it to me and told me to unroll it revealing the lovely napkin with its precious oval of menstruation from Her precious body. i was so grateful i began rubbing her period over my face and licked the bloody oval on the napkin.  i put her napkin into my mouth and sucked on it while Mistress’ friend commented on how disgusting it was.
 
Mistress commanded me to unzip my fly and show her friend my pathetic cock. It was very hard. Then Mistress gave me the greatest privilege. She allowed me to play with my cock and masterbate while licking her dirty napkin as She and Her friend watched.  i got so hot i almost couldn’t stand it and it didn’t take me very long to cum, shooting my load onto the ground.
 
Almost the instant i came, the two Women rose to their feet and began walking away, leaving me on the ground with my cock out and a bloody napkin on my mouth. Now that i had cum, i began to relax and realized how disgusting i had been and how generous these two women had been. They understood my weakness – they felt sorry for me.
 
i rolled up the bloody napkin and placed it in my pocket. It was Her gift to me and i took it home with me to worship until Her next menstrual period when, hopefully She would contact me again.
 
slave chris

i love being frightened and vulnerable as I walk to meet a new man ready to do anything sexually he demands. i love being a gay cock slave whose purpose in life is to please men.
 
i have parked on the street near the hotel. i feel like the whore i always wanted to be with no will of my own and no respect from anyone.
 
Men consider me a secret utility – a thing they order up at will who obeys them, adores them, serves them and is dismissed when a man is satisfied.
 
As I walk a man passes by me. I wish he knew i am wearing Women’s panties under my pants.  I wish he knew that my clutch contains condoms, lube, ass wash and mouth wash?
 
How I wish he would grab me, throw me to the ground, use my mouth and just leave me but he just continues walking away with no idea of the trashy me he has passed.
 
The man i am about to meet and service has been told about me from a friend. i love that men talk about me. I love that men talk about how far they can make me go and how desperate I am to please men.
 
He was tentative when we spoke. Would i do this for him – would I do that to him? The way he spoke was that what he wanted me to do was the dirtiest thing he could imagine.
 
When i when i said that i would do it all, I could hear his voice change and all respect for me disappeared and I could hear that he thought of me as trash and it excited me! I love it when people think of me as human trash available to be used.
 
i am at the entrance to the hotel now.  Automatic doors slide open and i modestly step inside. i want to walk with a swish so everyone will think of me as a faggot but I resist the temptation and move very straight. 
 
i cross the lobby and pass the bar where i spot a hooker waiting for a john. I am the free hooker tonight and my john is upstairs waiting for me. i hope he isn’t hard yet. i like getting men hard.
 
i stand in the back of the elevator as me and women get off before me and finally my floor and I find his room.  i straighten myself up and ring the bell. i hope he hasn’t changed his mind.
 
The door opens and after he looks me over, motions me to come in.  The door closes behind me and i get down on my knees. i hope i can please him.

“Hello”
“is this Dan?”
“Maybe. Who is this?
“You wrote your phone number on the mensroom wall with a message. So i am just calling.”
“What did the message say?”
“Looing for a dirty cocksucker to drink my cum.”
“You wana drink my cum?
“Yes. I am a cocksucker.”
 
“Where are you?”
“At the park phone.”
 
“Wait five minutes and then go into the mens room. Stand in front of the urinal and pretend to pee. I’ll be there.”
 
THAT’S THE WAY I MET MY FIRST MASTER WHEN I WAS 20. HE CHANGED MY LIFE.
 
It was late morning and the park was not busy.  Women with babies mostly. i stood in the men’s room, unzipped my fly and took out my cock, playing with it, pretending to piss. He came in a stood  next to me.
“You call me?”
“Yes.”
“Let me see your cock.”
 
It was already out so I showed it to him.
 
“Wanna see my cock?”
 
“Yes, please.”
 
He took his cock out of his pants. It was nice  - maybe over 7 inches and uncut.
 
“Wanna watch me piss?
 
“Yes please.”
 
He started to piss. Then stopped.
 
“Get down on your knees next to my cock so you can watch me piss close up.”
 
I was down in a flash I really wanted to see it close up while he pissed. The stream came out strong and the began to dribble.
 
“Put it in your mouth while I finish pissing.”
I couldn’t help myself. The piss was coming slowly now and so I just took it in my mouth and clamped my lips around it and and tasted the warm  last drops of his piss. I swallowed them.
 
“Suck it.”
 
I was just thrilled to be down on my knees sucking a cock at the urinal. He didn’t know it but I had done it several times before. It made me feel low and dirty and I loved the feeling.
 
The were footsteps outside and I got up quickly. He motioned outside and left. I stood at the urinal and zipped my fly as a man came in. I innocently left.
 
He lived a block away and we went to his place. I love being in a strange man’s apartment where I don’t know what is going to happened next. I love feeling under a man’s control and he sensed that right from the beginning.
 
He wanted to look at me naked and so I stripped for him.  He took out a camera and took a picture of me playing with my cock.  Then he took a picture of me sucking his cock. He told me he would show it to his friends who might want blow jobs. I was very excited.
 
He made a phone call describing me to someone. I loved hearing him talk about me. He described my ass, he talked about my uncut cock, he appreciated my tight balls, he liked my smooth, shaved body and then he spoke about how I drank his piss and how I love cum.
 
After he hung up,  he pushed me to the floor and had me take his shoes off and lick his dirty feet. They were smelly and lovely and I loved licking between his toes and sucking his toes. Then he took his pants off and let me rub my face in his dirty underwear! That thrills me!
 
He turned around, pulled down his undershorts and let me kiss his ass hole. I was hoping he would sit on my face but he stopped when the doorbell rang. A nicely dressed man, a friend of his, entered and we were introduced as I knelt on the floor.
 
His friend needed a good blow job and he was hoping I would give it to him. Of course I would!  We all went into the bedroom and then, he left us alone. …just the man and me.
 
The man took off his clothes and got on the bed. He told me he wanted me to lick his entire body starting with his arm pits. I love smelling a mans sweaty arm pits and I licked him when suddenly he pulled my face away and kissed me full on  the lips, pinning me to the bed. I loved feeling the full weight of his body over mine.  Then he moved up and, holding my head, pushed his cock into my mouth and started fucking my mouth. I was looking forward to tasting his cum!
 
But, no, he had a different idea. He took his cock out of my mouth. There was lube on a table net to the bed . He pushed my legs back, out some lube on my ass, and some on his cock and shoved  his cock up my ass hole. It hurt but it was wonderful!
 
While he fucked me, he kinda of slapped my face a little – not too hard but just hard enough to show he was the boss. Then he shot his load into me and we lay next to each other on the bed.
 
i was so hot i was going nuts.  Then he told me to suck his cock clean. I used to love sucking a cock clean after it was fucking an ass and he seemed very pleased.
 
After the man left, I asked Master if i could jack off since i was so hot.  Master decided to jack me off himself because he wanted to drink my cum. He did it hard and rough, one handed while he stuck two fingers up my ass. I came big and he drank my entire load and then shared a few drops with me, spitting my cum into my mouth.  Sooo good!
 
Of course, I got to suck him off. Of course I got to drink his load. But best of all was the thrill of crawling at the feet of a man who ruled me.  It was the beginning of a very long and complicated relationship that eventually introduced me to some very interesting women.
 
 chris
 
 
 

All my life i have been submissive to people but underneath my submission i am scared. People have no respet for me and they know they can push me. i am always fightened that someone will take me somewhere i cannot go. This has rarely happened but it is always a poassability. This fear runs beneath whatever i am doing to serve someone. Truth is, i need to be scared. it parallels my feeling of disgust for mysef as i obey unreasonabl commands from my superiors. 

People take pleasure in demaning things from me they would never demand of a decent normal person. They demand it of me because they think less of me, and they enjoy having a person so desperatly low, they can laugh at me bending to their will.

People kbow i get sexually aroused when i am submissive and the hotter i get the more they can demand.  Finally, when i have satifying their whims, they kick me out, knowing i am still in heat laughing at my situation.  It is not easy being submissive. But i cannot help mysef.