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3 years ago. March 15, 2021 at 11:30 PM

I am not catfishing.  The picture of me on her is about 4 years old, but it's also the only photo I have of myself wearing make up, with my hair done that isn't 20 years old. Why is that? Simple, I'm not a make up girl. I wear t-shirts and leggings, not dresses and skirts.

Not that I'm opposed to wearing dresses and skirts, but because I wore them for eighteen years, and every single one had to pass the kneel test. If the hem didnt touch the floor when you keeled it was too short.

And what's my problem with make up, you might ask well I don't know how to put it on very well. It's not that I didn't want to; it's just I didn't learn. What's the point? When you're invisible, you are invisible regardless of what you wearing, how you're made up, or what your hair looks like.

You know that movie where the girl sits down, and someone sits on her? That's me. It's not me because I wanted to meet me; it's me because that's just how life cast me. So with the whole pandemic thing going on, and not being able to get to a salon, I shaved my head.

And you know what, it rocks. I look good, and I don't have to spend 35 to 45 minutes on my hair. I don't have to pile it all up in a ponytail that gives me a headache within 4 hours because let's face it that's what your hair does after a certain amount of time being up. You girls will know what I'm talking about.

A little secret between you and me, in that photo I have no teeth. I stopped wearing them because they were uncomfortable. I had them pulled because they were causing me intense physical pain, and not the good kind. That photo of me is me today, Sans hair, Sans makeup, and slightly heavier. But hey more me love right?

So no I'm not catfishing. I'm just looking for someone who will accept me for me, because that's what I plan on doing with them. I guess that's a foreign concept right now, or at least it is with some of the guys that I've talked to. I'm always happy to provide a picture of what I look like now.

Mama Bear JJ​(dom female){koa} - Agreed, well said ... I don't wear make-up either and there is nothing wrong with that choice. You won't find any photos of me wearing it on my profile either, because it's not who I am. Don't be afraid to use a photo that represents who you are. You don't need make-up. Like you said, you look good just the way you are and are confident in that. If someone else doesn't like the photo on your profile because you aren't wearing make-up or don't look a certain way, fuck them. Just be you and the right person will find you 💕
3 years ago
Cressida Clytie​(masochist female){Taken} - I was also called catphish not long ago. But that is because of my weight. Everybody has their own preference, some without make up, some likes it light and easy (like me), some do it wild. The important thing is that you are happy. Contented. As JJ said, just be you. ❤❤❤❤
3 years ago
SirsBabyDoll​(sub female){Pizza+☕} - Gotta love religious upbringings, eh? The more ridged, the more "spare the rod" shit, the more invisable we feel as adults.

I wear my hair in a ponytail all the time but if it gets lower than my lower torso, it does give me a headack. Chopping off a few inches relieves it. Or maybe I'm just so used to head pain that I don't notice.

I never wear makeup, mostly for the same reasons. That, and with what I do for work, that shit comes off before I get to work. It's like my skin just sucks it all in and poof! Gone.

Love me for ME, not what I look like. (Special occations asside). If I have to waste time getting all dolled up for you EVERY DAY, then who do you love? Me? Or the image in your head?

All this is to say, "you be the proud, pain living girl you are!"
3 years ago
Lion​(dom male){Hazel Eyes} - You be yourself, if they don't like it they can move on. No one and I mean no one should tell you how to live your life. If they want to be a part of it great, if they want to dictate it no Thanks. As my beautiful lioness says move along felicia nothing for you here. 😊
3 years ago

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