All these thoughts. All these feelings. All these emotions. All of this...what to do with everything I have inside? Happiness mixed with sadness. Excitement mixed with fear. Hope mixed with impatience. But most of all...love!! Not just some silly little school girl kind of love. Not just some “newbie thinks it’s love” kind of love. Nope. Not the “she’s mistaking admiration for love” kind of love either.
I’ll admit, everything has happened quite fast. It’s been as intense as He is. But I know what I feel and what I want. I love Him. I want Him. I am His! Today, tomorrow, and every single day after that. He is the missing puzzle piece that completes me. He is who my heart beats for. Every cell in my body aches to finally be with Him and never be apart again. Though distance separates us, our hearts beat to the same rhythm. Waiting for the day the two finally meet and become one! Now, the hard part...waiting. The waiting is what agitates my anxiety the most. The waiting is what I hate the most. But...I’ve waited 40 years...I can wait a bit more.
In the meantime, I am to keep a journal to try and release everything I feel. All my thoughts and feelings and emotions and hopes and fears.
So, with His help, I found the perfect journal. All that is left is to find the perfect writing utensil. I looked but didn’t really find anything that called out to me. I know it might sound silly to some of you. But I just need that one special tool that will motivate me to write everything down. I explained to my wonderful Master how important it is for me. He asked me what I was looking for and I told him what I want.
THEN...SURPRISE!
Master ordered it for me!! Am I not the luckiest girl ever?!?! His special gift for me. So perfect. I can’t wait to start writing in my journal with my gift!!
Thank you so very much, Master!! I love it!! ??❤️
