Me as a Middle, are you a different type of submissive? Do you feel you might be a little/middle with similar needs?
As a middle, I find myself mixed in with all submissives and some D's not really seeing a difference. I am not an age player or a general submissive. For me, I feel like there needs to be more care taken because as a middle, I have a younger heart along with many portions of my mind than those who are not middle/littles.
As an adult, I know my body has the sexual needs of an adult. I need that passion and roughness, the pleasing and being pleased, and in general, ravaging me while sating the needs and possible fetishes of my Daddy. I need the softness after the storm of a session, I need my Daddy telling me I did a very good job in doing what he asked of or told me to do during sex. I need more physical, mental, and emotional contact from Daddy or a potential Daddy at the moment, because I need more reassurance that being me is what my Daddy actually wants, what he needs. Not just in the aftercare session, but through out the day. NOT just someone to talk about sex and having sex with, but a 24/7 DYNAMIC.
I personally feel more like I have a middle school personality and heart; it is the essence of who I am. When I have to adult, I don't really change who I am, it's more like I change my hat. Similar to a kid who loves to play and relax with hobbies, they also know that chores/work must be done to be a productive person in the household. As an adult, I have the knowledge to know what needs to be done, which is darn near everything, and how to do "chores" in my own most efficient way. As a middle, I would rather be guided as to what chores I would be responsible for, my Daddy's guidance in how he would like them to be done including favorite meals, and if I get overwhelmed, that I will have a Daddy to help me get back on track. I need the Daddy to be strong enough to teach me a lesson when I misbehave or punish me when I act out willingly with disobedience. I need him to make me eat healthy, I need him to keep me in line to do what is best for my health.Maybe that part is regular D? Sensual is nice, but I need the other rougher more stern side too.
I need more patience at times from my Daddy because I can be really emotional especially if I did something wrong on accident. If I'm really trying hard on doing something to please Daddy, but I'm failing whatever training I'm trying to complete. I work so hard and the disappointment is jarring when I don't get it just right. I need a good amount of time with my Daddy around. This is me keeping in mind that working is a necessity and am not asking for him to go part time or anything silly like that. Kind of like how kids always want to be around and hanging out with parents until they turn into a 15+ teenager then you don't exist lol. I want him to read to me, give me baths and, play with my hair, watch an anime movie with me. If we had people over, I like to play card or board games. My psyche needs closeness without judgement. Attention without being burdensome.
Further, my well-being needs more thought put into it as well. It seems as if I don't have just adult worries and needs like paying the bills, working, or being street smart; unfortunately, I have my kid heart and brain worries as well. Like will I be kept safe from others that may mean me harm, and will Daddy give me a stable and consistent home to live in?
I have the intelligence to know what I want, and what I need. To know where I'm weak and where I am strong. I not only know who I was, I know who I am at this moment in time, and where I want to go. I just don't know when anything is going to finally take off for me, or why I am the way I am, in that I need this dynamic. I feel overwhelmed in this vanilla world where everything is wild and running amok. Always trying to be the perfect adult and having the stress and responsibilities of working, handling all household duties, being an adult/parent/step-parent on my shoulders. Luckily H helps a lot with his kids. Can you imagine all this on a young heart?
