My Submissive Heart and Soul

I wait impatiently for you to be here and I can show you my love.

To press my breasts against your skin. To open up my legs and let you bury yourself deep within. For my wetness to be yours and to cover you in it. To let you push me to the place where my body quivers and my mind clears. To the place where my heart is full. 

My caressing fingers would love to touch you all through the day. To talk with you, so that I can know all of you. I would love to care for you and make you comfortable.

I wait sit on aching knees for you. I impatiently wait to be used by you. 

Because I know this is what you deserve. You deserve my everything, because that is what you give to me. Even the smallest of touches. Your heart, your mind, your control, I love it all. There is no safer place than in your arms or sitting between your legs with them wrapped around me.

As you caress my hair and look lovingly into my eyes. I know I am where I belong.

I wait impatiently for you to be here...the days cannot pass quickly enough.

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Ohhh yeah .....

Yes .. let's 😘

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Exactly  ... 

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Mmm hmmm ...

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If I could be directly in front of you Daddy ...

I would kneel before you waiting for your touch. I would stand and wrap my arms around you and embrace the moment we both have been waiting for. 

If I could be in your presence, I would whisper to you how handsome you look, how much I love you, and how blessed I am to be your baby girl. 

If I could be in your presence every day, when you are finished work, I would help you change out of those work clothes. I would run you a hot shower, your hot meal would be waiting for you. I would massage your body till the aches subsided. 

If I could be in your presence, I would wait for your command to go lay or kneel naked and wait for you to come to me. I would take all the pleasure you have to offer. 

If I could be in your presence Daddy, I would be there, for the good and the bad. I would be your calm, as you are mine. I would lift you up when you are at your lowest Daddy.

If I could be in your presence, I wouldn’t need anything.

... the countdown to your arrival has begun ... each day is day closer to when I will be in your presence  ... 

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"I'm proud of you."

These words were spoken to me by a close friend last night. But when they were expressed, at first I couldn't see why they were. Coming off of a difficult week. It tends to weigh you down and you're not able to see all of your accomplishments and growth. Sort of that "can't see the forest for the trees" syndrome. We all experience it.

Later in the evening it really made me ponder. I started to think back on when I first started to really try to understand myself better, especially this part of me. Worried there was something wrong with me for having the thoughts and feelings I do. Terrified of what else I might discover about myself and how I would feel about it and what other people would think about me .. even the people here. Even knowing the different involvement of kink here.

But I was determined and made a promise to myself that I would not ever deny myself or be denied again what I need, I did that for most of my adult life. I made a vow to myself that I would embrace the true and real me .. whatever that may be.

It really has been a journey and will continue to be. It has been exciting and terrifying at the same time. I've met some amazing people, some who will forever be life-long friends outside of here. They are in my heart. I've met some people who have not treated me kindly or respectfully. Sometimes I thought, none of this is worth the pain I feel. But what I've discovered is, that in spite of the ones who have hurt, I am stronger than they are. I've gone through the aftermath and come out the other side a stronger, more brave person.

Nobody's perfect. I am certainly not and the first to admit it. I may not be the most beautiful, the sexiest, or the girl with the perfect body. But I don't pretend to be someone I'm not. I'm Good at being me. I might not be proud of some of the things I've done in my past, we've all done things we regret. But I learn from mistakes. I Am proud of who I am today.

And that is the person my friend saw when she said it. She saw the brave, strong woman.

When I look back at my life, I see the pain I've endured, the mistakes I've made. And when I looked in the mirror last night, I saw what my friend saw. A strong, beautiful woman who chose not to take the easy way out, to run away, but who took the time to sort through all of the past hurt instead.

We all have things going on in our lives that cause us to stumble and waiver. And we deserve to be proud of ourselves for being brave in facing what it is for each of us.

So ...

To my friend ...
To all my friends ...
All those in my life ...

I AM PROUD OF YOU!!
YOU ARE BRAVE
YOU ARE STRONG

So whatever it is you're going through and facing ... be proud of yourself ... and know ... this too shall pass.

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Is where I yearn and long to be. 

To feel the warmth of your skin on mine.

To listen to the rhythmic sound of your heart beat.

I ache to feel your touch and passionate kisses.

I burn with desire that’s fueled everyday by my love for you.

My heart races as the anticipation grows and the days are nearer to when you are here.

I am safe.

I am loved.

I am secure.

I am me.

It’s where I belong and always want to be.

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You Daddy ... 

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The Chaos in my head and heart ... is exhausting. I need to go to my quiet place. Every emotion possible, I am feeling all at the same time. A perfect storm for my little girl. I need to try to quiet my mind, quiet my heart, and be calm. I am struggling to get there. 

I know I must experience it all.  So I can grow from it, but I could do with a little less growth for awhile now. I try to remind myself ... I am strong. I know what I want ... and don't want  ...  and this will pass.

I keep closing my eyes, trying to breathe and feel the calm surroundings of my quiet place. I am struggling. 

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