My Submissive Heart and Soul

It takes courage to push yourself to places you have never been before…to test your limits… to break through barriers.

"And the day came when the risk it took to stay tight inside the bud, was more painful than the risk it took to blossom."
~Anais Nin

My eyes close, to see and experience the sensations produced by the endless procession of fantasies, wants and desires.

I want to live darkly and richly in my femininity. I want my Daddy lying over me, always over me. His will, his pleasure, his desire, his life, his work, his sexuality the touchstone of our relationship. 

I have known since I was a young woman I am submissive and I’ve had submissive sexual fantasies my entire life. My fantasies have always involved being pursued, captured, restrained, enjoyed by and submitting to a worthy Dominant male. The key word is worthy ... someone who is naturally Dominant, honest, knows Himself. My Daddy appreciates my adoration and service and is worthy of my trust. 

For those of us who are naturally submissive, who show love through acts of service and devotion, who have found trustworthy partners/Doms who appreciate our way of showing love and appreciate our need to serve that exists deeply within us…there is no greater freedom; to be able to live in agreement with our deepest natures.

I am learning and Daddy encourages me to be open and ask for what I desire. Even when some of those things scare me. He accepts lovingly, guides steadily and with such care. It all gives me the courage to explore.

I’ve never felt happier or more fulfilled. This only works because I judge Him as wise, just, fair and trustworthy.

Daddy, thank you for being the man you are, the Dom I need, the Daddy who loves me. You have changed my world.

I have always said to people: "to stay true to yourself".  I have tried to follow my own advice. It has been wonderful and scary and downright painful at times, but I have found myself and learning to no longer be afraid, I am embracing who I am.

I can't wait to find out what the future holds. Whatever it is, I will let Daddy lead and guide and protect.

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... words are not needed .. a picture shows all of how I'm feeling ... 

Mmmmmmm ... 

.... all of the above this morning ... 

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Daddy sees the hunger in my eyes. He knows my hunger.  It is one that never goes away.

Just as fire needs oxygen to feed it, my desires and needs are my oxygen.

Daddy says he hears it in my voice, sees it in my eyes. I NEED to submit. When I submit, it IS my greatest pleasure. It is in my soul. I NEED to please. 

When Daddy feeds my needs, my desires, it is like air to me, like I can breathe again. He fuels that roaring fire in me ... sometimes it is quite uncontrollable, all-consuming. 

And the more I submit, the more I want to, the more I need to. 

Daddy knows...

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My sign Cancer!  For some fun ... the descriptions are incredibly accurate!  Which one are you?

So... in summary ...

I am very sensual, sexual, feel deeply, will move heaven and earth for those I love. If angry enough (it takes alot to get there) but if I do, you better run.

Yes...all of the above are true to me.

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... just what I needed.  

It's been a couple of really stressful days. Had a little meltdown yesterday (always a sure sign I need the quiet). Tried to have a better day today, but that didn't exactly work out, people were not cooperating!  So today, is one of those days, I need to just be quiet.

Sometimes, when my mind and emotions are on overload, I find the need to go to my quiet place and escape the chaos in my mind. It's been an accumulation of things. 

I'm so thankful for Daddy. He knew exactly what I needed ... 

And I needed to hear His voice.

It's all I could think through the day ... I NEEDED to hear His voice.

His voice is the most soothing calming voice I have ever known. He calms the chaos in my mind, soothes me into the most peaceful sleep. 

MY Daddy 

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To start the day ...

I try ...  

But ...

I am ... 

Always ...

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The way I wake up ...

He knows ...

 He tells me ... 

He knows ... 

He provides  ...

I give all to Him ...

Thank you Daddy  ...

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... yup... winter is here! -33C (-27F) here tonight.  Yup..you read it right! ... and winter hasn't even started yet!!

...this video says it all !!

https://vm.tiktok.com/uVRNUx/

This is the title of a movie I saw in the early 90's (I know..aging myself just a little). I watched it again recently. The storyline is about a man who dies unexpectedly and before he can move on, he must defend his life and the choices he made, before ascending to a higher plain of existence.  While there, he meets a woman and falls in love with her. While maybe not one of the classics, it definitely spoke to how I have felt in the past and how I'm feeling at this point in my life. 

In the beginning, I thought I was here to have fun with my sexual appetite and kink, and I have had fun!! 😏 But I soon found that this is much more and has become more than just sex. It truly has been a journey of self discovery. 

I came to the Cage to learn about myself, my kink, to learn and grow as a submissive and be able to express my thoughts in a safe environment. I have met some wonderful people who will remain close to my heart always. And, like many, a few not so great.

To my surprise, the most wonderful person snuck into my life quite unexpectedly. At the time, I wasn't looking, wasn't interested in talking with anyone except those who were "circling the wagons", surrounding me to get through a painful and uncertain time.

One night though, some how, for some reason, I answered a message and things have grown expenentially since then.

I never thought it was really possible to find someone who would truly understand me, my needs, my desires and still love me. But guess what?! He does!  My Daddy does understand me. Not only does he still love me, he encourages the very part of me that I have kept hidden for a lifetime. I have shared things with Him that very few people know. 

He is a wonderful man and as I continue to share more with Him, He continues to help break down the walls of my fortress. He makes me feel safe, loved and cherished everyday. 

His visit recently was so incredible! Our time together brought us closer and continues to. It really is true that when someone so special is not near you, absence really does make the heart grow fonder ... and my body aches for his touch again!! Everyday, we grow closer and stronger ... more than I EVER thought possible. I love being HIS! 

The best thing of all, is I can finally be myself, embrace ME, embrace my needs and desires and know Daddy does not judge me ... there is only acceptance and love. His voice excites and stirs me. But also soothes and calms me. 

I am excited for the future and want to run towards it and all it's possibilities.

Daddy is showing me every day, I no longer need to defend my life. 

7 weeks until I will be in his arms again!!

I am counting the days! 

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Daddy is in the air ... on his way to me!! Just a few more hours. 

I am so excited, I can barely stand it a minute more!! 

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