Name' sake

The lovely Ms Poppet posted recently about the frequency of scenes, etc, and it brought me back to my ponderance of this subject - something that has always intrigued me. So I thought I would share my blatherings . . . 

What causes some people to obtain sexual gratification from experiencing pain?

(I dont attach a label to myself, Dom/sub/switch, etc - but I can say this, ive been on both sides of the rope.)

I was talking recently with a dear friend and explaining how the "heightening of desire" rises, along with tollerance - or should I say vice-versa.

If im not "in the mood" and someone were to strike me with a _______, I would say "ouch, that hurt, stop it - cant you see im trying to change this flat tire?" If however, I AM in the mood, I would say "do that again while I change this flat tire".

What happens in the brain?

If said person were to continue to strike me while I wasnt in the mood, could they cause the brain switch to flip? I know the reverse is possible - "in the mood" and seemingly without cause, slip out of it.

What is the driving factor that dictates this?

How often does your Dom/Domme hit the right level of desired pain? And in the right way, in the right place/s - at the right time?

How do you feel beforehand? After?

If it goes well, or doesnt.

Could a person be conditioned to enjoy a different type of pain than their normal desires?

could a person be conditioned to like pain when they previously didnt? (I dont think the reverse is possible)

There are those who enjoy a little bit of pain once in awhile, and there are those who take things a bit further - and there are those, the giving and/or recieving is a requirement to function at all.

There have been many times in my life where someone would come up to me and say "omg, what did you do? Youre bleeding" - and I was completely unaware, didnt feel it when it happened - or at least to the extent that it did. How much more does something hurt simply because you saw it?

I watched a documentary about the "nocebo effect" - perceived pain that wasnt actually there. Fascinating stuff. What the human mind does with pain.

Anyway, like I said - blatherings

Open for discussion, should anyone be

"in the mood"  ?

I've decided, your blood tastes better than mine

Bunnie

I mean . . . . She's just . . . . Bunnie 

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Seeker of truth, seeker of understanding.

Anyone who strives to be a better human being I respect and admire, so yeah, heres to you Ms Bunnie ?

I have always felt you contribute a wellspring of worth to this site 

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Thank you Eros ?

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I raised a glass,

To the distant past.

To forgive,

And I forgave

**** 

I love,

And I have loved,

And the good lord knows,

That I gave.

Found mortal,

Upon my grave,

Leave the last,

For ones ive saved.

Your first time?

Or maybe your first amazing time?

My god, the fires burned so hot then, didnt they?

Does that passion really have to be lost to the passage of time?

Black blank stare

Falling away from care

Fuck this!

Fuck that!

Fuck you!!!

I dont need twisted,

more than I am.

Unravel yourself first

Feed your thirst

However you need

Plant your seed

Of jealousy 

But not in my garden

Ive felt this gut cold before,

You're not worth feeling it again,

Or anymore . . . 

"I wish I was older"

"I wish I was younger"

"I wish . . ."

"I wish . . ."

"I wish . . . . . . . 

Life IS -15 and 353 days.

Life IS - 99 and 12 days.

Most dont seem to realize how old I am, perhaps because of my antics and playful nature - im 18,

Yep, only 18 - in my head and heart anyway. I will leave this place 18 years old.

The hard slap in the face reality is I turned 60 this year. I know there are those here older than me, but in this time, my time - 60 is hitting hard. Suddenly regrets become much more prominent. I am extremely flattered that I can still attract 20 somethings, lol - but thats not reality, is it? Flash in the pan fantasy.

Something I have learned recently,  and truly accepted as truth  - "you cannot fully embrace life until you fully embrace death". 

We are temporary

(You have your "after life" beliefs, and I have mine)

I feel those who witness the sunrise with me, and I feel those who no longer are. 

I started this blog with the intention of it being a diary of sorts for my sons  ?

No more "saving face", no more false fronts or maintaining a persona, at a certain age, you just stop giving a damn.

I love you, please always know that 

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