I wanted to get into blogging but I wasn't sure how. So this is my first and I am excited. Fitting it is self titled.
I have been talking to so many great people. Self exploration abound. It has come to my attention that, in yet another way, I am different. So, as I do, I started to ask myself why. This morning, with some amazing coffee and some self reflection in some amazing sunlight through the window, I realized something. It kind of blew my mind.
Why am I so happy in isolation. I know I am an extreme introvert. That helps. I also know I am Demi. I need strong relationships. My mind is the guard to my heart. He is Just, but he can be Protective. I love him. haha. Still... how can a single, demi, be so content at home, with nothing but her own ministrations to entertain her. Someone who craves intimate connections to peoples souls, be happy in the silence of individuality?
I love myself.
It is strange to say. Everyone should, right? But do you? I love myself first. I read into my soul. Feed it what it needs, listen when it speaks, and take care of it. It is a full time job sometimes. But I am always here. Have always been here. I may not have realized it earlier, but I am confident about it now. I hold people to a standard I hold to myself. I am here, isolated, but happy. I can wait until I find someone who can handle that much. Until then, there is always the sun through the window.
I do miss those people, once in my life, that meant so much to me. Those that are now gone. But I look forward to when I find that again. Until then. *sips coffee in the sun spot*